"It hurts when I realize I'll never mean that much to someone."
I looked at the picture on her phone.
It showed two young girls, laughing in a yellow flower field
obviously having a good time.
I felt a something in my stomach,
a weird feeling I've propably never felt before...
It was like that feeling was crawling up my throath
and formed a ball that was stuck right there
'Jess?"
'Yes?'
'Are you fine?'
'Yeah, why though? Like i appreciate you asking just why do you ask right now?'
'You seemed like you were spacing out...'
'Oh yeah I was just looking at your wallpaper =)'
'yeah it's me and Peo like a year ago'
'It looks cool! Your like best friends right?'
'Yepp definetily =)'
'Cool... I need to go to the toilett'
'Oh okay?'
Why did that damn feeling just get worse?!
Am I angry?
No not really right?
Eh I don't know and I don't really care
'See you!'
'Yeah bye bye!'
I just arrived home...
And the feeling won't go...
Why?
Why am I feeling like that....
I know I'm not angry so what am I feeling?
You know what screw emotions!
They don't make sense!
That's when I though I tasted something salty
'Huh?'
I touched my cheeks,
they were wet.
'Am I crying?'
'Why though?'
Am I .... Jealous?
It can't be right?
Why would I be?
Emma and Gloria are best friends theres nothing to be jealous of....
Now that I'm older I know why I was jealous
It was the first time I realized it...
Well not me but my heart...
Sometimes your heart knows more thann your brain
I figured these times
It really hurt when ..
"It hurts when I realize I'll never mean that much to someone."
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Spotify Playlist
I listened to while writing:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5kL1IvylLSbi4DlYoklJ1X
