We'll Get Through This

Part 16

"I know," Carina sighed, "I have felt the same way. I think that's why I want to work, to try to not think about it for a few more hours tomorrow. How about if after my appointment tomorrow, we pick the twins up early and go do something as a family, maybe go to the aquarium or down to that big park by the Sound?"

"That sounds like a great plan," Maya nodded, "I'll plan something tomorrow morning because I don't have work."

They both got into bed after they finished getting ready. While Carina still wasn't carrying the twins until she got the all-clear from her doctor, she and Maya had started cuddling in bed again the previous week because Carina wasn't having any pain and had been desperate to be in her wife's arms after a long day at work where she lost a baby and almost lost the mother as well. Since that night, they had spent every night in each other's arms, making up for all the night they couldn't.

Tonight, Maya scooted closet to Carina, pulling her close as they settled into bed.

"I love you," the blonde said, pressing a kiss to her wife's lips.

"I love you too," Carina said, reciprocating the gesture.

They then both tried to get to sleep, tried being the key word. Over the next hour, they both shifted a lot, neither wanting to disturb the other just in case they had somehow fallen asleep. However, eventually, Carina rolled over in Maya's arms so she was facing her.

"Can't sleep?" Maya asked, brushing a piece of hair off her wife's face.

"No," Carina sighed.

"Me neither," Maya said, "Talk to me. What is keeping you up?"

"I guess I'm just nervous about tomorrow," Carina sighed, "Which is stupid because it's not like anything crazy is going to happen. I am going to have my follow up and then spend some time making sure they have all the settings right on the machine that is going to give me my treatments and then get like 10 minutes of treatment and be done, but my brain is just running like crazy."

"Is there anything I can do?" Maya asked, gently rubbing Carina's back.

"Talk to me about what's keeping you up, Carina said.

"I'm just nervous for you," Maya shrugged, "To watch you go through this. I wish you didn't have to, that I could do it for you. And not knowing what is going to happen is making me anxious. I've read about side effects, and I am worried for you because I don't want anything to happen to you."

"The chances of something serious happening to me are very low," Carina said both to remind herself and her wife.

"I know," Maya said, "But even some of the less serious things make me worried for you. I hate seeing you sick or in pain."

"I will probably be sick at some point during this," Carina sighed, "And I am not excited about that, but it will be ok because I know that you will be there with me through all of this and that whatever happens, we will figure it out."

"I promise I will be right here with you the entire time," Maya nodded, "And I will take care of you as much as possible."

"I know," Carina said, cuddling closer to her wife, "I wouldn't want to have to go through this with anyone else, even if it is scary."

"I wouldn't want you too either," Maya said, "I love you too much to not want to be here with you."

"I love you," Carina said, leaning in and giving Maya a kiss.

They just laid in each other's arms for a while, occasionally letting their lips come back together. About half an hour later, Carina pressed her lips to Maya's again. The blonde smiled as she kissed her back, a little surprised when Carina deepened the kiss.