The Awakening {Jason Kolchek X Fem!reader}

N I N E

Unlike me, Nick had people to go home too. He had a sister, and a mother, who were worried sick about him. Two people who loved him dearly, and wanted him to return home safely. And I could tell that in this very moment, Nick was regretting ever leaving his hometown to join the Marines.

Shit, even Merwin looked nervous, although he'd never admit it.
Merwin had a wife and son back home. I knew how eager he was to get back and see them, after he showed up at my barrack late one night, completely intoxicated, and rambling about how badly he missed his family.

I understood their cautious behaviour and worried expressions.

I wasn't quite so lucky though.

The only thing I had to return home too, was a dark apartment, with no furniture, and an old pack of beers in the fridge, that had long since expired.

Maybe that's why it was so important that I found [Y/N]. Maybe that's why I was willing to bet my life, that this old roll of bandage, belonged to her.

I had to find her.

"Nick, I understand if ya' wanna turn back, but I can't. You know I can't." I started, and just like that, Nick's features softened.

"What do ya' mean, man?" he asked, eyeing me curiously. Merwin looked just as confused and as intrigued as Nick did.

I let out an audible sigh, "If [Y/N] is alive, I'm going to find her. Shit. . . I have to believe that she's alive and okay. . . I have too." I explained, feeling very uneasy about talking like this to two grown men, who viewed me as their strong minded leader. "[Y/N] has somehow gotten to me already. . . I can't explain it. . . but I'm not just about to let her die down here." I finished, shaking my head slightly. I can't believe I was saying this crap.

Nick gave a slow, but sure nod of his head. He understood, without me saying it. Damn, even if I didn't fully understand it yet, Nick definitely did.

I was thankful that he didn't push for further explanation from me. I hated all this mushy crap.

"Right then," Merwin added, cutting in, "We better find her quick then. If she was using the bandage, then she's hurt, which means she's bleeding. Those things will track her down in no time." Merwin added, and I knew he was right. We had to get moving. If [Y/N] was injured, and alone, with no weapon, and little of any other supplies and resources; then we didn't have long to find her. She could be in serious trouble.

"I say we go down the path closest to where the bandage was found. If injured, she can't have gone far. Don't fall behind, and keep in radio contact at ALL times!" I ordered, hoping for a miracle, but preparing myself for the worst.

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"[Y/N], look! The torch is flickering much faster now. There must be an opening nearby." Salim explained, as we rushed down narrow ally's, and squeezed between many little gaps, or crawled under numerous rocks. It was all rather exciting, really. Terrifying, as I have mild claustrophobia, but exciting.

Just when my ankle almost gave out, and the exhaustion almost became too much for my tired, beaten body. . . there it was. A rather large hole in the cave ceiling, with boulders that lead up to it. Sure, they didn't exactly look “stable,” but it was definitely manageable. We could get out, if we just worked together.

The outside world was right there.

I could feel the crisp, cool desert air on my skin, which caused small hairs to prick up, and goosebumps to splash across my skin.
The night sky had many twinkling stars, and the bright white glow of the moon, which only made the outside seem even more inviting.

What I wouldn't give to be on the service, eating a bowl of hot stew, with a cold beer in hand. To be clean, and have all my wounds re-dressed, with a book on my lap.

It sounded heavenly.

But I couldn't leave.

"Come, I'll help you up, then I'll follow." Salim exclaimed, but I quickly grabbed ahold of his hand, and pulled him back to look at me.

"Salim, I can't leave." I explained, in a quiet, sombre tone. It was only four words spoken, yet Salim understood.

"You don't think they're still alive, do you?" he asked, coming closer to me.

I thought for a moment, then shrugged. "I don't know, but I do know that I'd never forgive myself for leaving this place without searching for them."

"But we have searched for them. We've wandered around for many hours, and haven't seen any sight of another living person. It's not looking good, [Y/N]." Salim answered, rubbing a soothing pattern on my hand with his thumb.

"I know, I know. . . but I can't leave them behind. . . I can't leave, Jason." I said, offering Salim a sad smile.

"I'll stay. I'll help you look for them-"

"No, Salim, you have to go. Your son is back home, waiting for you, and probably worried sick." I explained, as I took a step away from the Iraqi. "Besides, who knows what will happen if I find Jason and you're with me. He'll want you tied up, questioned, and possibly imprisoned back on base. It's not worth the risk."

Salim thought about this for a moment, then gave a long, hesitant nod. "Okay," was all he said, but the look on his face, showed great concern. "Please stay safe, [Y/N]!"

"You too." I responded, giving the man one last sad smile, before I turned on my heel, and went back deeper into the caves.

I couldn't bare to look at the man as he climbed up and out of the cave. Something about his character and body language, reminded me of my late father, who I missed more than anything.

In a way, it felt like I was losing my dad all over again. That's why I had quickly left, not daring to even so much as glance over my shoulder at his departing form.

I needed to stay focused.

I needed to find the others.

I needed to find, Jason.