TXT Oneshots - DISCONTINUED

Preassure - Beomgyu

Preassure.

That's what Beomgyu felt.

The urge to be perfect.

The will to be the role model for everyone.

The wish to make everyone smile.

But did he make himself smile? If it wasn't for his members,he wouldn't even smile.

Lately he thought he is annoying to members, specially to Yeonjun.
In a v-live they were doing together,he saw a comment saying like: "If i was in Yeonjun's place I would probably kick Beomgyu out of the room because he is so childish and annoying".
When he read that,his eyes watered. When Yeonjun asked :"Something happened Beomie?" He replied "I saw a comment that says I'm their role model and it made me emotional, that's all" even though it was quite opposite of reality.

As time passed,as they did more v-live together,he saw more comments like that. Even though he never showed it,he was deeply hurt.

He didn't even notice the beautiful crystal tears he is shedding every night while sleeping.

As more time passed,he distanced himself from the members,talked less,ate less,spoke less. And of course didn't tease them.

Members of course noticed his unusual behavior but didn't say anything.

For now at least.

But they saw Beomgyu is finding chance to distance himself even more like this.

So they decided to speak about it.

                              ***
-Beomie, are you sure you're okay? - asked Soobin.
-I'm okay, don't worry hyung, - he answered.

Everytime they tried to talk,the conversation ended like this.

Yeonjun tried to tease him, hoping he would tease him back and mock him like he always did.

Soobin asked if he wants to play videogames at night, cause that's what they were doing when it is night time.

Taehyun asked everyday,if he wants to workout with him. Beomgyu never used to refuse when Taehyun asked him that. But recently he did. It broke Taehyun's heart.

Everytime Hueningkai went to hug him,he just felt cold. It wasn't the warm hyung he knew.

Then reality hit him. The comments...
The hate he was getting.
The body shaming.
The face shaming.
Hate comments to his beautiful voice.
Hateful messages to his ethereal face.

Not all people have good eyes and taste, right?

Hueningkai wanted to put an end to this.

And he was going to do it the hard way.

                               ***

Without asking if he can come in or not,he barged into the room. Before Beomgyu reacted he held his hands.

-You are telling me what is bothering you right now.

-I-i don't-

-Yes you do,now spill hyung. I want my Beomie hyung back.

- I.. don't know from where to start.. I.

-Take your time, I can wait.

5 minutes passed as Beomgyu decided what he has to say. He didn't want to hide anything anymore. It hurt both him and the members.

-I-i'm ready.

- And I'm ready to listen,hyung, - replied Kai.

- Uh.. so when i was doing v-live i always saw hate comments. I thought they would stop if I made the vlive with one of you. That's why i kept asking you guys. And uh.. it didn't really work..