He Saved Me

Part 24

Scottland POV

I Woke Up In The Hospital Yet Again , Not Knowing What's Going On Until The Doctor Came In Letting Me Know I Lost The Baby . I Instantly Started Crying , Because Why Can't I Become A Mom .

Is God Punishing Me For Something I Don't Know About . I've Already Multiple Miscarriages , Is He Letting Me Know I Won't Be Able To Carry Kids .

Dream Came In And We Talk For About An Hour . I Just Let Her Know That , I'm Gonna Be Needing Some Space And To Tell Mel What's Going On . I Don't Want Anybody Going Through My Pain , I Don't Wanna Bring Anybody Down . My Life Is Such A Shìt Show , And I Don't Even Know Why .

I Don't Do Wrong To Nobody , I Mind My Business And Stay Out Of Other People Business. My Life Can Never Go Right , When I'm Only doing The Same Thing .

How Am I Suppose To Find Love . I Keep Having Miscarriages Nobody Going To Want To Be With Me . Whoever I End Up With May Want Kids , And How Am I Suppose To Tell Him I'm Not Forsure I Can Have Kids Or Even Carry Full Term.

I Told Dream To Get Dave , I Really Just Need To Be Held Right Now . I Know He Will Do It . I Heard A Knock A The Door , Then It Open It Was Dave . I Instantly Cried More.

" Everything Going To Be Okay . I'll Be Here For You . " East Said

" No It's Not , I Can't Even Have Kids . This Is The Second Time . I've Lost Both Of My Kids " Scottland said

" Only God Has A Plan For You , He Knows what He's Doing . Is It Right ? No But He Wants You To Be In The Best Place Mentally And Physically . " East Said

" Can You Just Hold Me , I'll Be Able To Go Home Tomorrow " Scottland Said

He Held Me For What It Seems Like For Hours . It Was Now 5 In The Afternoon, Everyone Left I Told Them To Go Take The Kids Out To Eat , Then Get Some Rest . But You Know East Isn't Going To Do That .

The Doctor Came In To Check On Me , Comfort Me . I Just Really Want To Be Alone Right Now . I Don't Know What To Do With My Life .

I Need To Get Back In School For Nursing , And Then Open My Own Nursing Home Or Agency . I Really Don't Know What I'm Going To Do Yet .

I Heard A Knock At My Door .

" Come In " Scottland Said

It Was East At The Door

" I Thought I Told you To Go Get Some Rest " Scottland Said

" Know You Know I'm Not Doing That While Your In The Hospital , I Got To Make Sure You Coo " East Said

I'm Alright Thanks For Checking On Me " Scottland Said

" How You Feeling " East Said

" I'm Not Mad Or Upset , Because I Knew In My Heart I Would Be Able To Take On A Challenge From Being Rape To Having A Baby . It Wasn't With The Right Man At All . So God Was Letting Me Know He Had A Plan For Me . It Would've Been Better If It Happen In The Beginning But It Didnt . So I'm Here Now And It Won't Be A Hard As A Challenge Like It Was When I Found Out " Scottland Said

" Damn , Thats Deep . Well You Know I Got Your Back Through Whatever " East Said

" I Love You As A Friend " Scottland Said

" And I Love You Too As A Friend " East Said