𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐞 || 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐠

𝐦𝐞

And if we hit on troubled water
I'll be the one to keep you
warm and safe

And we'll be carrying each other
Until we say goodbye on our dying day

❤︎

Dear Min, my darling, my love.
When you read this letter,
I'm probably not here anymore.
First of all I want to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry love, for leaving you so
early. I'm sorry for leaving our kids,
Chan and Lix. Life is so unfair.

And still I can't bring myself to be
mad, all I feel is sadness but also
thankfulness. I'm glad that even
though I had to go sooner than I had
thought, I still had a wonderful time.
It might sound absurd but these past
months were so dear to me, you took
such good care of me and never made
me feel like a burden.

You made me feel so loved, Min.
All my life long.
I love you so much.

My place is by your side which is why
I want you to take my wedding ring
and put it in the little box in my bedside
table together with your ring.
They belong together just like us.

Also as strange as this might sound,
please bury me under the Hazelnut
tree in our garden. I talked to the
responsible authority already, it's
my last will so they can make an
exception as long as you'll only bury
an urn. That's okay for me, I don't
mind getting cremated as long as I
can stay close to my family.

And there's another request I have
for you. It's about my funeral.
I don't want this to be sad, I don't
want another day to pass where I'm
the reason for the tears in my family's
eyes. So please, do not cry anymore
about me. Even if it's hard, I know.
Don't wear all black, wear clothes
which can comfort you and won't
make it even more depressing.
Wear your favorite hoodie, the light
blue one I got you on our first
anniversary. I'd love that, you look
so beautiful in it.

You're the best husband I could have
ever wished for, thank you for
the happiest years of my life.
Thank you for giving me our
two wonderful children.
Thank you for loving me until the end.

I'll always love you, Min.
No matter what.

~ In love, Lee Jisung.

Minho wiped his eyes harshly,
not wanting a single tear to drop
onto the paper in his hand.

He couldn't risk ruining his
husband's beautiful handwriting.

So that was it,
Jisung's farewell letter.

He had hidden it under his pillow,
knowing that Minho would find
it there after the younger's death
and it just hurt so much to know
that he must have thought a lot
about his funeral before he
had passed away.

Jisung must have known that
he didn't have much more time left.

A sigh left the ravenette as he
reached over to take the small box
out of the younger's bedside table,
the one he had mentioned
in his letter.