I'll be okay as long as you're here

Beach after the storm

TW: Self harm, abuse, mention of suicide, eating disorder.

Jade's pov
I woke up laying on Beck's chest his hand was on my back and the other on my ass. I realized I fell asleep during the movie last night and that Beck just decided to stay there and sleep in the living room, I checked the time on my phone which was just on the table near the couch. wow it was only 6:52am and I was already awake.. I putted my phone back down and I started playing with Beck's brown hair while he was still asleep. he started waking up and I smiled softly at him.

"Hi hottie" I said and kissed his lips

"Morning beautiful!" Beck smiled at me then putted his hands on my back

"How did you sleep?" i asked

"Well, what time is it?" he asked looking for his phone

"6:52am"

"oh it's still early. what made you wake up this early?"

"nothing especially don't worry"

"mmh.."

"how come i woke up with your hands on my ass babe? you were horny?" i asked joking

"what? noo it was just to keep you in place." Beck said a bit nervously

"mmh if you say so"

Beck smiled at me then we started making out, a few minutes later we were still kissing and then Beck's mom Karen appeared down the stairs, we broke apart and looked at her

"hey umm hi mom!" Beck greeted it was actually awkward

"oh hi i'm sorry for interrupting you two"

"it's fine Karen, we were just kissing nothing more don't worry!" i explained to her

"oh okay anyway imma make some breakfast do you want something? a coffee?

"Can I have a coffee please Karen?" i asked

"sure sweetie!" Karen smiled softly

"are there still some doughnuts? cause i would really like a chocolate doughnut now?" Beck asked

"mmh i'll check? Jade do you want a doughnut too?"

"umm no thanks." i answered smiling at her

"you sure sweetheart ?" Karen asked

"yes don't worry i don't like eating-umm in the morning" i said but then realize if i just say i don't like eating they're gonna force me to eat as well

"oh okay i'll call you when your coffee is ready!"

"okay" Beck answered

"Beck?" i called Beck

"Yes babe?" he answered me

"it hurts.." i said.. after what i did last night it wasn't even shocking i couldn't blame anyone else than myself..

"oh come here." Beck said trying to reassure me

"mmh.. what if something is infected?" i questioned worriedly

"like what? we disinfected your arms and belly."

"i don't know but it hurts a lot Beck."

"alright come here!" Beck said and got me on his lap

Beck's pov

Jade and I were somehow cuddling on the couch she was on my lap her legs were wrapped around my waist her head was on my shoulder and i was rubbing her back softly. We were freezing it wasn't a hot day it was a really cold summer day so i putted the blanket on the two of us but mostly Jade cause i didn't want her to get sick and all this stuff cause when Jade is sick she's not being herself. Last time she was sick all she did was throwing up, her lips were turning purple without any reason and she was never hungry which is really unhealthy because she just didn't eat and didn't drink she just spent her day in bed starring at the ceiling or watching sad movies and weirdly asking a lot for alcohol she didn't even shower she barely slept but when she does it was like coma. She also acts like a baby which doesn't really bother me because when she acts like this she's cute and sweeter like she wants to be in my arms all the time she wants me to feed her and all so it's okay i got used to it now and so i know how to deal with her