COLOR RUSH ► jaesahi

twenty-six ♡

"Let's do it" Jaehyuk smiled even more wider at his decision.

Jaehyuk slowly held the hem of his mask before he pulled it down. For the nth time, the color palette was again spinning on his eyes.

When the japanese collapsed, he immediately carried him on his back before he walked closer to the ocean.

He made sure to place the japanese gently on the white sand and sat beside him, making his head lean on his shoulder as he waited for his mono to gather his consciousness again.

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"So this is how the sea looks like.." the younger mumbled in pure amazement seeing the beautiful view of sea in front of him.

When he was still a kid, he thinks the gray colored sea was pretty but he never know how much it looks more beautiful with colors.

"Do you like them?" the latter asked as he converted his gaze from the sea to the younger.

"Kinda.. It looks beautiful with colors" Asahi answered while still admiring the view.

Look how the ocean waves looked cool, the bubbles on the sea water was cute. All he thought at first as a kid that it was a foam.

It was funny that all of his knowledge when he was a child was all wrong. Colors was indeed beautiful, if only he can see those everyday. He would be really thankful.

"Colors were indeed beautiful" the younger suddenly blurted out all of a sudden.

"Yeah... Very beautiful" Jaehyuk said dreamily as he stared at the younger standing beside him.

Luckily for him that he had this chance to stare at him because he was busy looking at the sea.

For some reasons, he doesn't know why suddenly asked the japanese the question he had been dying to ask him.

"Asahi, what are we?" Asahi suddenly got startled of the question from the latter.

He wasn't expecting it. And at the same time, he doesn't know what to say.

"Huh?" he asked with pure confusion.

"What are we?" the latter repeated. Of course he could hear him, but he was more confused on why did he suddenly asked about it.

"W-what do you mean? W-we're humans" he unintentionally said in a joking manner.

He could suddenly feel the awkwardness of the atmosphere and he wanted to shake it off. It was just not the right time for that thing.

"What was our relationship?" the younger could only gulped in tension. What will he say? Even him, he can't answer that.

"You are my probe. We're also friends, right?" Jaehyuk avoided his gaze and smiled bitterly.

Why are you even expecting something?

"Yeah right. Probe, I'm only your probe. Nothing else" He said in a low tone voice. And he's obviously disappointed, but on the other hand it's still his fault.

He expected something from him that he should've not did.

Loving him was wrong, he's only my probe. I can't love him, I shouldn't love him. I will just put him in danger.

Of course there was still a factor of him that is very afraid to say what his heart currently wants. He thought that he's ready to say it to Jaehyuk, but he's still afraid.

Jaehyuk heaved a deep long sigh before smiling, this time it wasn't his usual smile. A sad and disappointed smile.

What did he expected anyways? He seriously had all his courage built up but his answer just suddenly make everything complicated.

He was now hesitating if he should still say it or not.

"If only you'd let me bring colors to your life forever, I would gladly teach you how the colors feels like" Asahi can feel that this is messed up.

The urge within him to run away from him is overflowing.

"I think we should go back now. We still have to attend school tomorrow" Asahi said to change the topic.

But before the japanese could walk away from him, he immediately grabbed his hand.

"Asahi, I'm serious with you"

This is what he's afraid of.

"I am taking all I said in your house because even Jeongwoo knows how much I would do to be with you"

Again, his mind went blank. He doesn't know what to react as well as to say to his probe.

"I don't know how and I don't when when but all I know is that my heart wants you"

Asahi avoided his gaze and tried to escape from all he was feeling right now. What he feels inside right now is unexplainable and just pure chaos.

"I don't know what are you saying, Jaehyuk"

He was about to run again but the korean didn't let him.

"I wanted to be yours, Asahi. I would do anything so I could be yours"

"If you still can't understand what I mean" he added

The korean stepped closer to the japanese and held both of his hands.

"Asahi Hamada, my mono, my comfort, my happiness. I admire you, I adore you, I like you, I love you, whatever how I could say these feelings towards you"

He feels like exploding any minute. He's really happy of what he heard but he's afraid he can't say what he feels for him for now.

"I don't know, Jaehyuk. I'm sorry" he lastly said before running away from him.

to be continued..