CARMEN THINKING - THE SOUND INSIDE A SEASHELL PART 1

CRAZY LITTLE LOVE IN A CRAZY LITTLE WORLD

SOFTLY SINGING "QUE SERA SERA"

September 8, 2014

there was a boy

there was a girl

they were so good together

as friends

no two trusted each other more

as lovers

no two wanted each other more

but take a step

just a step

one lousy step

into the real world

into a world outside being lovers and friends

a step

just one step

CHAOS

there was a boy

there was a girl

they just couldn't get along out there

as lovers

as friends

they spoke one language

as anything else

around anyone else

they couldn't make sense of each other or themselves

there was a boy

there was a girl

they will never be together

ME

September 8, 2014

there are many things I think that I am afraid to write. things I think that scare me. I know I think of death more then most and I am sadder than I should be. but I also know that I appreciate small things that many miss, I stand in awe of the insignificant.

maybe this makes me special.

I don't know.

it definitely makes me different and after years of fighting it, I finally accept the different within me.

there are many things I think that I am afraid to write. but not this.

I am happy to be me even though me is not always happy.

WE HAVE THE FLUFF THAT MAKES IT FUN AND THE CONCRETE TO MAKE IT LAST

September 9, 2014

it is quiet now

so quiet now

the early morning light falls on your cheek as I watch your gorgeous sleeping form

it is quiet now

so very quiet now

the children have all grown up

the grandchildren are our pride and joy

it is quiet now

so very very quiet now

but it is a good quiet a sweet quiet

I am quiet inside and out

as I sit here beside you 30 years into our future

not the future

our future

for it is the only future I see

I see you

I see me

I am beside you

always beside you

it was always you