COLOR RUSH ► jaesahi

twenty-three ♡

Jaehyuk:
I hope that's okay with you

Bub:
Yeah

Bub:
I'll tell aunt too

Bub:
Thank you

Jaehyuk:
Aww, welcome!

Jaehyuk:
Anyways, goodnight if ever you'll sleep hehe

Bub:
Goodnight

Jaehyuk:
Love you!
Seen✔

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"Why did you decided to go home?" Jaehyuk straightforwardly asked Jeonghan who are busy watching the tv.

"Don't you miss your dear brother? Woah, I'm sulking" Jaehyuk immediately picked the cushion and threw it towards his brother.

"It doesn't suit you hyung pfft" he replied to his brother.

"You mean giant. Come here, let's have some you know, talk" Jaehyuk smiled at his brother before he walked towards him and sat beside him.

"How's your life? Are you seeing someone right now?" Jeonghan asked his brother.

Jaehyuk immediately thought of a specific someone before he sweetly smiled on himself which his brother could clearly see.

He usually see his brother with his smile but this time, it was more brighter. He shines more with his smile.

"Look at that smile, so who's the guy?"

"G-guy? What guy?" He innocently asked his brother trying to avoid the topic.

"C'mon, stop playing. Tell me, who's the guy"

Jaehyuk was really proud and confident when he was talking about Asahi but it was just opening with his brother is just new for him but he'll get through it eventually.

"A-asahi.."

"Asahi?"

"He's Asahi Hamada. Uhm, I met him even before we became classmates. To be honest, when I first saw him I already thought that he's perfect"

Jeonghan was just looking at his brother. On how he was actively telling everything about Asahi. He could really say that his brother was really in love at this point.

"Who caught feelings first?" Jeonghan suddenly asked.

"I think it would be me, I mean if you'll see him he's really warm and kind. I love everything about him"

"You're really in love" Jeonghan suddenly blurted out while smiling, genuinely happy for his brother. 

"What?"

"I said you're really so in love"

Jaehyuk suddenly had questions running on his mind. Does it look so obvious?

"Hyung.."

"Yes?"

"Why did you say that I look so in love?" Jaehyuk asked in a genuine confusion.

"Your smile"

"But I'm always smiling"

"Jaehyuk, when you're in love, everything about you will change. It can be both physical or emotional even your habits. And your smile is one of the very good example"

"H-how?"

"Your smile would look more shining and bright. It looks really different when you had someone on your mind. Looking how much you eagerly share a lot of information about him, and looking how happy you are when we are talking about him" is that how he looks like?

Jaehyuk suddenly remembered how he almost confessed on him. He looks confident when it comes to telling people about Asahi but never when he talks about his feelings to Asahi.

"Hyung, I messed up"

"Why?"

"I almost confessed my feelings to him earlier. I gave him red roses a day before and he actually asked what it means but I was so afraid that he might find out about what I feel"

He's afraid of rejection. He had been rejected several times but with Asahi, he's afraid. He's afraid he doesn't felt the same way as him.

Thinking how much he would be so sad and devastating, he would rather make his feelings as a joke rather than to tell him all the truth.

"Then just this morning he asked me if I was being serious about saying I love you through roses and also asked him back that what if I was serious with him?"

"Hyung, I was so afraid of what he feels towards me. What if we don't feel the same way? What if I had to stay away from him? I don't want that, I wanted to stay on his side, to see him everyday, to touch him. Everything was just driving me insane the more I hide what I feel"

"I said I was just playing with him and I wasn't really serious about it but when it fact, I'm indeed serious that I love him, I adore him. I wanted to spend my forever with him"

"Hyung, I don't know what to do"

Jeonghan catched his brother's hand and smile at him, a reassuring and comforting one. Because he knows he needs it.

"Love is a risk, Jaehyuk. You can't just be afraid all the time. Everything in love will just makes you risk what you have. Why? Because you'll never know what he feels about you when you don't tell him about yours"

"Being afraid is totally normal but you can't just stay silent and afraid about your feelings. What if he feels the same towards you and you are here, just afraid"

"But at the same time, you should give yourself time also, to think about some things. But the most important lesson is that be courageous enough to tell him everything if you really love him, you don't want to regret everything in the end right?"

Right.

Then maybe it's the sign to risk everything. This time no more playing. Say I love you to him if you really have to.

to be continued..