Sixteen But Thirty

Good not good

         

              Wow!!! wonderful shot Nanon your beautiful in every angle, just like that smile more just like that yes, it's was good Only two more shots Nanon good Ok it done you done nice job let's end the shooting.

            Thanks p'light I hope you got nice shot.

           You really talented nong'nanon you done your best as always but I still miss the first photo shoot i done with you.nong i still miss your bright eyes that shine with joy.

        Why i still smile you just said i looks good in every angle now you telling me i was not good.

               It's not like that Nong i just want to see you smile for the real not just for a camera i has name for best photographer,i had twenty years experience i feel emotions when I take photos when I worked with you so many times still i do because i like you,i care about you nong when I take a first photo today when you look at the camera all i saw was empathic pain, confusion.

         We'll everything was not same as always it not work like that p'light and thanks for today i had good time p' i have to go.

       Has i said i walk out to my cabin i take a deep breath try to control to feel more anxiety,i look myself on mirror well as i thought it would nice to be a famous actor who was always in shotlight who had many followers and who someone adore by many it what i want and i got it.

           But now a days i fear i will loss it all in some days what will I do if i lost what i will be.

        I was in this industry for ten years i got many fans and got loved by many.

          I was good actor and singer who got many awards for that.

             But people all change there bias as daily basis or for treat.

                     I know my market in this industry was not that bad but it still not that good i still not able to achieve a goal i set.

          But the main problem was i feel lost i feel like a child who lost in dark who trying to find a light but was so scared of something which was reality.

             I trying my best to not get tried for something which I love most, i love each character i act they all not real but that character which loves by everyone but the real me was not loved by own fans so i started to act in real life.

                Now i don't know which was the real Nanon anymore.

                I do my best in what i do so everyone around me will happy.

               Today i got busy schedule i already done with my shots in series in early morning than done photo shoot just now that having another interview for my latest song which got spot hit,then again having action shot for movie.

         It's was tired day but i have to be busy and do my best so i don't lost my spot in this industry.

        Chimon was gone to meet his family today so it was little bit hard for me.

           But it's good he was best person who i admired lot.

        At least he had family not me who was not having family.

          I changed my dress for next shot i put smile on my face which had its own fanbase.

           Just a Life i chose to love by many.

        Which was a life i lost myself.

        Itself a life of Nanon a best Actor in current period.