Little Snippets

STORY : 4

" WHERE, WHEN "

No matter where I go
I'm always gonna want you back
-want you back, 5SOS

Life never stays the same. But you still want the same things again until you understand that you can't have it anymore. You feel depressed. You feel lonely. You feel worthless. But no one ever tries to make you feel good or let's say wanted.

I think I've seen this film before
But I didn't like the ending
-exile, Taylor Swift

Life is like a movie. It keeps repeating itself until you don't understand that life isn't fair. The ending always remains the same, alone in the corner of a room listening to sad songs and without even realizing you end up sleeping on the floor on the coldest nights.

You used to call me baby
Now you calling me by name
-youngblood, 5SOS

Life has one important part known as love. The feeling or the emotion of love is really rare especially now when relationships only stand on facebook anniversaries and instagram birthday wishes. And these relationships only take a second to break because they have to do nothing but click on the block button on FB and IG.

It's so quiet up here and I feel so cold
This house no longer feels like home
-so cold, Ben Cocks

Life without even thinking once, makes you feel like a total stranger. Suddenly you start to feel that it was your destiny to be left alone to cry. You start to feel that no one cares for you because you were just kicked out of your friend circle for a crime you didn't even commit in the first place. Those friends, who once were your life but now they hate you with your every inch of blood.

I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here? Oh I don't belong
-creep, Radiohead

Life makes you feel like a loser. You start to believe that as well. You start to question yourself, maybe something is really wrong with you. You start to disgust yourself. You feel pain when you see your friends are happy without you. You start to play with anti-cutters and scissors. And without even realizing you are in a hospital fighting with life itself.

Shoutout to the old me and everything you showed me
Glad you didn't listen when the world was trying to slow me
-old me, 5SOS

Life finally shows up as your first friend after the fight. Life shows you that there's a long way to go. Life also shows you that happiness is present all the time you just have to find it. And you, for the first time, find a new hope to live with the help of none other than life itself. You start to understand that life was the only friend that decided to stay with you and show you the path of light.

My faith will never die
Go on, go on, go into the blackest nights
-my love will never die, Claire Wyndham

Life, the most beautiful gift ever given to human kind. No one should ever misuse the gift of the Almighty. Life will not always be there to wake you up every morning. So embrace life, enjoy it, make some good memories with your family. Because I think that family is the second most beautiful gift, and we don't want to waste such precious gifts like life, family, love, affection. And sorrows, well think of them as some abandoned people. Think that sorrows got abandoned by happiness. So next time sorrows come to visit you, welcome them warmly, it might make you and sorrows, both full of happiness. It's tough but what's the harm in trying, right?

"You again managed to stun the listeners, Michelle,"  said he looking the screen, "I'm so fucking proud of you."

"Are you really?"

"What are you kidding me? You have been my favorite speaker in these self help online events, you give so much business," his face all excited.

"Business, call me when the next event happens," I say, packing my bags.

"Hey, let's go out and grab something to eat?"

"Business's done, we will meet at the next event."

I slam the door behind me and try to find a bus for me. People say the ones who try to fix others are the most broken from inside. The reason they try to fix others is because they don't want others to go through the same thing they went through. They want to be that supporting shoulders to others that they never had. 

Through these years of hosting self help programs, I forgot what the first reason for starting all of these was. Was I trying to comfort others or was I trying to distract myself from the fact that I'm the one who's more broken.

I sit on the bench outside with my bag and files,looking blindly at the sky, wondering,

Where does it end?

When does it end?

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