one shot aus

wish you were sober, heehoon.

their convo-heeseung and sunghoon.

SUNGHOON :

mahal? (love in english)

where are you right now?

are you already on your way
to your house?

or are you already in your house?

heeseung, i am already worried to you.

heeseung?

SUNGHOON'S pov

Shit. Heeseung's not answering my text and calls. He is drinking with his friends. What if I try to contract his friends? I'm sure one of them is still sober.

I picked up my phone and searched the number of Heeseung's friend in my contacts. Maybe I'll try to call his closest bestfriend, Jake? Since I think he is the type of a person who doesn't get drunk easily. So I tap the call button and started waiting for his answer.

He is not answering my call neither...

I search another contact on my phone who is Heeseung's friend. But all of them didn't answer my calls neither my texts. What should I do to know Heeseung's condition right now? Hmm, maybe he is already in his house. Should I go to his house?

My phone vibrated while I am still drowned on my thoughts on how to contact Heeseung. So I opened my phone immediately, wishing Heeseung is the reason why my phone is vibrating because he already answered my messages.

their convo-heeseung and sunghoon.

HEESEUNG :

lpbe (love)

um sirry gor evereytjing i hvea dine (i'm sorry for everything i have done)

hiwq bvad i wshied ti stsy withh yoi unyol you diw (how bad i wished to stay with you until you die)

i satill loveq you,, bhb (i still love you, bub)

SUNGHOON'S pov

I stiffened in my position while I am reading his messages. Love? Our call sign is mahal (love in english). So why he is calling me love? He still haven't called me in that call sign since God knows when. So I answered his messages, asking him why he is calling me love suddenly.

their convo-heeseung and sunghoon.

SUNGHOON :

what?

love? our call sign is mahal (love)

heeseung?

what's going on? is there anything wrong happening to you?

heeseung?

please answer me

i'm getting worried

SUNGHOON'S pov

I waited for his answer on my message. But it seems like he is having a hard time to text me. Because I can see three dots beside his profile. Maybe he is already drunk and that's the reason why he can't type properly.

While waiting for his message, a memory suddenly came to my mind. Love? I know a certain person who he calls love in the past. His ex. But maybe he just accidentally translated our call sign? Maybe I am just thinking of things that aren't true. Maybe. Heeseung is in love with me. Heeseung is in love with you, Sunghoon. Always remember that. He already assured you for many times.

their convo-heeseung and sunghoon.

HEESEUNG :

slmossdt evweryday (almost everyday)

isqtill yhiknk of yoy (i still think of you)

rven i sm in relationnhsip wiyh sungojon (even i am in relationship with sunghoon)

yao aee stilq the oke i tjink of andf lobe evry fuckianh dsy (you are still the one i think of and love every fucking day)

i stailk lovea yoh,,, jonhdeohj (i still love you, jongseong)

SUNGHOON'S pov

Fuck it. So all this time we are in a relationship yet he doesn't really love me at all? I love him so much but he is still in love with his ex? How fucked up is our situation? My situation? One sided love? Why? How? I am the one who stayed beside him, I am the one who loves him truly since the beginning. But why, Heeseung, why? Damn you, Heeseung. You are so cruel. You are breaking my heart into pieces.

I breathed heavily. No. This is not true. I said to myself. Heeseung is drunk that's why he is blabbering nonsense things. He is only drunk. Heeseung is drunk, Sunghoon.

If he will say this while he is sober maybe I will believe. He's not in the right mind right now that's why he is saying all those things. Yeah believe that, Sunghoon.

Yeah. Maybe he just suddenly translated our call sign.

Yeah. Maybe he just accidentally called Jongseong's name, my brother and his ex, who's already dead a years ago.

Make yourself believe those "maybe" of yours, Sunghoon.

I believe that sober person can think straightly.

So, I also believe Heeseung will say he loves me if he is sober. 

Eyes were starting to welling up on my eyes when a thought suddenly cross my mind. I breathed again and calmed myself so I won't start crying.

But I am afraid that I also believe that drunk thoughts are true.

Because it might be their thoughts that they chose to hide while they are sober.