Lovely & Deadly [Jujutsu Kaisen]

Chapter 8: Enemy Attack At The Goodwill Event!

Nana's POV

A few days had passed since Junpei's death and our fight with Mahito and both Yuji and I were still trying to recover from the pain and loss we suffered. Ever since Junpei passed away, I always had this thought back in my mind that if the boy had still been alive then we could've become best of friends. But sadly that wasn't possible anymore as the thought was just now fantasy and was far from reality.

And on top of everything else, it still clenched my heart like hell whenever the thought came to my mind that I was the one who killed Junpei in order to save Yuji and free him from his own misery. Sometimes, it felt right for what I did; I saved Yuji's life and put an end to Junpei's pain and suffering as he was already transformed into a cursed spirit by Mahito, meaning there was no going back. But then again, sometimes it also felt so wrong by thinking that I just killed a friend who I met a day ago because we ran out of options to save him.

Either way, it was the first time that I took away a human life and it was haunting me like a ghost ever since that incident.

"I didn't expect you to call me so suddenly, senpai, given that you're always so busy with your mission in Africa these days..." I stated with a small chuckle in amusement as I poured some coffee into my mug with one hand while pressing my cell phone to my ears with the other.

"I'm sorry that I can't call you so often nowadays, but today's the Exchange Event with the Kyoto guys and you're participating in it for the first time, so I thought of calling up my favorite kouhai and wishing her the best of luck." The certain individual chuckled back from the other side of the call.

"You're so sweet, Yuta senpai." I teased with a small smirk before taking a small sip of coffee from my mug.

"When it comes to you, yes, I'm always sweet, Nana." He stated in a playful tone and I let out a small giggle in response. "Anyway... how you're doing now?"

I went silent for a moment before I let out a heavy sigh and spoke up again.

"Good, I guess..." I muttered, placing the mug on the counter. "I'm still struggling with my problems, you know. Yuji as well... We just need some time to heal and recover from Junpei's death, that's all. You know, after that incident, I just started to realize one thing now; that in our lives, it's not all black and white. Most things in this world are in shades of grey; a blend of fear, anger and so many other negative emotions along with positive ones. I'm neither a hero nor a God. I'm just a normal human being who is also a jujutsu sorcerer, trying to do some good in life, but then again, life and fate are sometimes very cruel and there are times when we just have to accept those cruelties. It feels as if I'm a morally gray main character in my own story..."

"When did you become so philosophical, huh?" Yuta senpai asked in amusement and I chuckled in response.

"Life forced me to become one." I responded back with a playful sigh while I could feel Yuta Senpai smiling on the other side of the call.

"You'll be okay, Nana. Trust me." he stated in a warm and comforting tone. "You know what happened to me a year ago, remember? That whole situation with Rika...? It was really hard at first, yes, but I soon recovered from it and moved on with my life. And I know both you and Yuji will recover from this pain and trauma very soon as well."

This caused me to smile to myself. Yuta Senpai had always been like this; a comforting, caring person. He always knew to say the right thing at the right time to someone and that was one of the personality traits I loved the most.

"You know, Gojo sensei is really concerned about you, Nana." Yuta Senpai spoke up again and I raised an eyebrow in confusion.

"Really?" I asked, slightly tilting my head to the side.