fingers entwined

4...

School has finally begun again, it seems like just last night they danced under the dark sky. Enno was asleep on y/n's desk using his arms as a pillow. Smiling down at the boy she gently combed his hair with her fingers. How lucky was she to be able to call him her's. Her best friend, her everything. Not everyone was as blessed as she.

Every time she saw him her heart would grow in size. She loved him, she truly did. His movement in his sleep pulled her back to reality. Chuckling silently to herself she took a quick picture and set it as her wallpaper.

Even if he was tired from training earlier that day he would always come over and spend time with her. She cherished moments like this. Just seeing him was enough for her. If only he was awake to see the loving gaze, she gave him. Maybe then he would've been more at peace.

Resuming her homework, she tore her eyes from him. How she despised homework. She was average when it came to school. Maybe she was just humbling herself. Yet she was fine with that. She didn't strive to be the best at anything, just being present was enough for her.

But was it really? She always told Ennoshita how it was okay to be average because she didn't see him that way. Was she really okay with being average? Is that enough for her?

Maybe she is just being selfish. She shouldn't wish for more. She has a loving family and boyfriend, that's plenty.

Oh how her insecurities would eat her alive. A constant nagging. A constant voice telling her negative ideas. A constant thought that she is selfish.

Smile y/n, smile. That is all you can do. If you push it away, it'll go away. Push, push, push. Hide it. Don't think.

"Love, are you okay?" That was all it took for her to break. How silly, of course he would listen. Of course he would care.

"No, I don't really know what's wrong. One minute I was fine then the next I- I just don't know."

"Shh it's okay darling. Come here let's sit on your bed and we can talk about it, okay? No need to rush yourself." She nodded as he moved to her bed. Side by side they sat, while he whispered comforting phrases into her ear.

"Take a deep breath, everything is going to be okay. Even if it isn't, we'll always have each other." How lucky she was, to have a boyfriend who cared so deeply for her.