Always and Forever

nineteen

⚠️This chapter contains mentions of abuse⚠️

Today was a new day. A new day without Leah. It was hard yesterday but today? Even worse.

The team? Yeah, now they know about my breakup.

Training was a long one today, our session lasted two hours. Throughout the two hours, i was isolated and quiet. I didn't talk or anything. I just sunk in my own thoughts. No one bothered me. They knew i needed space so they gave me that until after training. I was in the changing room getting change when Mapi, Patri and Leila came in. Mapi came and sat next to me. She looked at me.

"We need to get some energy into you. You're a lot more fun when you're being your crazy, immature self"

"First of all, Mapi, I am not immature, especially for my age. Also, i don't feel like running around chasing Jana today"

"Stop drowning in your own thoughts. Relationships end"

"Yeah but mine and hers wasn't supposed to"

"Shit happens. What's meant to be will be"

"So i've been told"

"Stop dwelling on the past. It's her fault for breaking up with a young, hot girl like you"
I smirked.

"Hot? You think i'm hot?"

"Soph, please. Half of the girls on this team think you're hot"

"I'm going to need some names"

"Well Me, Patri, Leila, Jana and Rolfö. Basically the whole team"

"Patri, Leila. Is she lying?"

"No. You are pretty hot"
Patri said.

"Yeah, i agree"
Leila added.

"See, i told you. Look, i know this move has been hard on you but you wouldn't know that by looking at your performances. Kid, you're one of, if not the best youngster in the world at the moment. You're going to be a star. You've got your family back in London but right now, we're your family. You're apart of our family here. Everyone loves you and everyone cares about you"

"Yeah. I know, this is my home now and you guys are my family. I know"
I smiled.

"Sophie. Alexia loves you to bit's. All she wants to do is protect you and make sure you feel safe at all times. Sophie, she treats you like you're her daughter. She absolutely adores you"

"I know. Actually, there's something i need to do. Where is Alexia?"

"cafeteria with the rest of the team. What do you need?"

"I need to tell her something that i've not told anyone here"

"she's in the cafeteria"

"Thank you, Mapi. See you in a bit"

I left the changing room and went to the cafeteria. I'm going to tell Alexa about my past. She deserves to know the truth. The whole truth. I took a deep breath before walking up to Alexia who was sat with the majority of the team. She smiled and waved at me as i approached her.

"Can- Do you have a minute?"
I asked as i fidgeted with my fingers.

"Yeah. Do you want to talk?"
I lightly nodded.

"Alright. Here or somewhere private?"

"Not here"

"Okay. Let's go to the changing room. I'll get Mapi, Patri and Leila out"
Alexia got up and stuck her hand out, i took it and we walked to the changing room. Just like she said, she got the girls out and we sat down next to each other. I was fidgeting and she noticed. She cupped her hands around mines, calming me down.