Thomas Shelby imagines

159.Queen of my heart

"I had some place left in my heart for god
But now I see only you there"

Y/n was worried for a few days.Tommy wasn't acting like himself.He didn't speak to anyone anymore and was just locking himself in his house alone.

It had been so long since Tommy had a moment of peace.And staying away from y/n just made it worse.

Tommy wasn't in the best place in his mind and we all know why.He used to drown himself in the sour taste of alcohol and was doing a lot of opium.

Everyone was worried as hell about him but it got worse when they hadn't seen him since three days.Tommy didn't even show up to work,which he never skips and it pushed y/n to her edge.

She slammed the doors to the Shelby company limited den and walked inside looking panicked as hell

"Pol!"she called out for her

"I'm here!"she shouted from her office.Y/n hurried there to see polly putting money inside the large locker or room you can say

"Yes y/n?"she turned to her but her face dropped when she saw panic on y/n's face

"Polly did Tommy show up for work today?"

"No he didn't"Polly shook her head putting down the money and walking to her.Y/n sighed and rubbed her temples

"Polly something is definitely wrong"

"Tommy hasn't come to work for four days,he's not talking to anyone,he has not met me for so long which we know he can't live without"polly started to feel a little panicked herself.

Yes she knew something was not right with Tommy but not seeing y/n for so long clearly told her that he was not okay

"You have any idea where he might be?"she tapped her foot continuously on the ground

"He must be at the arrow house.We haven't seen him anywhere around not any of our men have so he's definitely there"polly said

"Okay I'm leaving then"she turned around and walked away.Polly followed her behind

"You're going that far right now?!"she shouted from behind as y/n walked out of the building and opened her car door

"There's no other way poll.If I leave by now I'll be there by 9:00 at night.Don't worry about me polly"she turned back and locked eyes with her once

"I'm bringing him back"she assured her that he would be okay and sat down in the car.Polly sighed loudly and took out a cigarette quickly to calm her nerves down as she watched her drive away from the den

Y/n reached the arrow house and it was already dark at night.She hastily slammed her car door close,and ran to the house door

She knocked on it loudly tapping her foot impatiently until someone opened.It was Mary the housekeeper

"Miss y/n?"she gasped in disbelief

"Mary where's Tommy"she quickly asked.Mary didn't say anything but just looked to her right.Y/n followed her gaze and saw that she was staring at Tommy's stable

"Thank you"she breathed out and ran over to the stable at the far end.

When she reached there she saw the stable was dimly lit.Not everything was clearly visible but when she turned her eyes to the left she saw a tall figure standing at the corner.

She knew it was Tommy so she softly walked there but she stopped dead in her tracks when she realised what he was doing.Her heart dropped in her chest when she realised he was holding a gun to his head.

"Tommy no!"she shouted running up to him and smacking the gun out of his hand.Tommy jerked at the sudden contact and slowly came back to his senses

Y/n picked up the gun from the floor and charged on him.

"Are you fucking crazy?!"she shouted gripping on his shoulders tightly.Tommy stared at her in disbelief,not being able to comprehend any words in his mouth

"Tommy what we're you thinking?!"she shook him,trying to get him back in his mind.

"I-"he tried to speak but just opened his mouth slightly a gap and stared here and there.

"Tommy why were you trying to kill yourself?"she asked softly thinking that,that might be able to get some words out of him

"Tommy please talk to me"she brought her hands to his cheek.Tommy finally looked in her wet eyes.Finally he stood still and just stared in them like they were white clouds of heaven and he was stunned by seeing them

Tommy felt himself starting to have a breakdown.His face was twitching and he couldn't hold it when he burst out in tears.His face was so dirty and his hair were a mess along with his red tired eyes that were now flowing out painful tears

She hugged him tightly to herself knowing for a fact that was the only thing he needed right now.He buried his head in her neck as he sobbed slightly,his tears dropping on her skin.He took In the familiar scent of her hair and choked on a sob.

He couldn't believe what he was about to do.He had always promised y/n that he would never leave her and would live for her.Yet here he was about to destroy everything for the family he had.

For y/n

"Don't you dare do that again"she sobbed slightly entangling her fingers in his brown locks.Her gripped on her waist tightly and she wrapped her hands tightly around him

He was so thankful to have her in his life.Once again y/n saved him from destroying everything.

She was the woman who stole his heart

Who owned his heart

the queen of his heart

"Im like a lost cloud of time
Who has come and settled in your sky of love"