The Withering Flower

Chapter 1

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Monnae Fay Pov

My eyelids rose and fell, heavy as ever as I sat in the snowy terrain, shivering endlessly.

No robe could withstand such weather but I...I do not care if I die from frostbite, or the loneliness in my heart.

For I have seen it before, the Withering Flower.

People say in the South that no flower withers, as all flowers are bestowed upon us by our God, Serinus Atheium.

But I call bullshit.

The Withering Flower, it is real, and I feel for it. The loneliness, the cold, the dark, the pain, and the miracle.

For both the flower and I are one in the same garden.

"Monna! Oh my goodness please come inside!", My maid, Lillian came and hoisted me up, my feet touching the cold snow.

I love the way the snow feels on my face. For a moment I feel something more that just pain. At least that is the only thing current in my life.

"Sorry Lillian, just for a little longer?", I held her hands in mine, my skin now turning a blue hue.

"No My Lady! Come inside immediately, I just do not know what has gotten into you!", She cried, her tears turning into tiny snowflakes as they fell.

Beautiful, I should cry with her.

"My lady!! Why are you crying?!", She wiped her face, now her skin also turning a blue hue.

"Oh Lillian.", I laughed, walking with her into the mansion.

Then it hits me, the warm air. Oh I would just die to feel that feeling again.

"Mr. Montare, please get a warm bath ready for my lady. Make sure it is nowhere close to hot, I do not want my lady to go into shock.", Lillian wrapped a blanket around me, as if I was a burrito.

She sat me on one of our couches and started the fire place.

"Now my lady, tell me what ails you?", Lillian tied my hair back for me, putting hot packs to my cheeks. "I want to feel Lillian, I want to laugh, I want to freeze.", I chuckled.

"Freeze my lady?", Lillian looked at me appalled.

"Yes freeze, I want the snowflakes to fall upon my skin and rest on me like a dainty flower. I want the snow to come out and melt me like an icicle. I want to freeze like a water droplet and turn into a snowflake.", I smiled widely, holding my warm hot chocolate.

"My lady....", She looked down at me worried before getting on her knees.

"I know....I know it is hard my lady....but please, don't leave us.", Lillian cried, holding my hands tightly.

"I'm sorry Lillian, it's suffocating, the pain is endless, I just....I want to die breathing the air that hasn't been breathed by anyone in this house.", I settled my hands on her shoulders.

"Thank you for understanding, you have always been the one I could trust.", I smiled, kissing her cheek.

Standing up I made my way out the door.

Looking at the doorway I could see my younger sister, Verdium staring up at me.

"Sister Monna!-", I walked right past her, not even sparing her a glance.

She has time, and I don't.

It had been like this since I turned 12 years old, soon enough I couldn't look her in the eye, when she looked at me with such adoration.