back to you | paul atreides

seventeen

Feyd continued to stare at me. His gaze was starting to make me queasy even though there was nothing queasy about his staring. "I, um, I guess I like.... Um..."

He raised an eyebrow. "Are you alright?"

"Erm," I stuttered. "Sorry you're just- you keep staring at me and I'm not quite sure what it means."

He shook his head and his expression changed into one almost of concern and confusion. "I'm sorry, I didn't realize I was doing anything odd. Does it bother you when I look at you?"

I blushed. "Of course not." I couldn't argue that I felt uncomfortable with him looking at me, that was completely unreasonable. Clearly he was not staring at me maliciously. "I just didn't know if it meant anything."

"To stare at you?" He asked me. "Ophelia, you are a very beautiful person and I feel very blind for only realizing this tonight. Forgive me if I've made you uncomfortable."

My eyes widened and I could feel the heat reach my face. How was I supposed to respond to that? Although it didn't seem sarcastic, his comment honestly seemed to be quite genuine. Obviously his compliment should have just passed over my head but for some reason it  brought a smile to my face.

"Uh, thank you." I told him as I stared down at my feet.

The both of us were quiet for a moment. Neither of us knowing how to move on from here.

"I'm still waiting to learn about you." He teased me with a smile.

I smiled back nervously. "Okay, well, do you want to ask me something?"

He sighed and thought about it for a moment. "What's your favourite colour?" He decided to ask.

Starting small, I thought to myself. "I love gold." I answered.

He raised his eyebrows in surprise. "Interesting choice. Funny enough, that happens to be my favourite as well."

I nodded and couldn't help the smile that reached my face. "I guess we've both got good taste."

He let out a small laugh. "I suppose we do..." He trailed off, thinking of another question. "What do you do for fun?"

I sat back and my seat and thought about it. I don't really happen to do anything for fun, do I? I've only even been invested in my studies and making sure that Paul had everything he needed as the heir.

Growing up we played for several hours at a time each day. I never got bored in his company, but once we reached our teenage years his responsibilities became more and more. All I really ever did was do my studies and spend time with Paul. It was almost a job.

"I don't actually know..." I said out loud, realizing it was true. I had absolutely no idea what I enjoyed doing for myself. "I never really had time to figure out what I liked, or if I had any hobbies."

Feyd considered this. "Why not? Did nothing interest you?"

I shook my head. "No, Paul usually took up most of my time. Being his friend was my full time job." I laughed.

Feyd didn't laugh with me though. My words almost seemed displeasing to him. 

"While you're here I hope you find something you enjoy."  He told me in a serious tone. "You're allowed to enjoy things here, Ophelia. I'm sorry that Paul Atreides forced you to take time away from yourself."

I made a face and shook my head. "No no, you've got it wrong. Paul was... is my best friend. I would do anything for him. I loved helping him to prepare for his position, its just that I never really had the time to discover what I liked..."

His expression switched and he nodded in understanding. "I see."

"Paul is a great person." I tried to tell him. "He would have never wanted me to be without a hobby. It's not his fault I never found the time to find one."

Feyd nodded. "You seem quite fond of the Paul Atreides." He commented. "Would you like to tell me about him?"

I wondered if he truly wanted me to talk about Paul or if he was looking to be polite. Regardless, the thought of the familiar boy brought a warm feeling to my chest.

"Well," I began as I considered where to start. "Paul always knew how to get on my last nerve..."

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