Assassin x Reader

Connor x Reader {4}

"Hi." He greeted,remaining himself kneeling and looked at the weeping skies above. "Tell me,(Y/N),how is it up there? I'm sure you're sitting there,clothed in white,looking at me like I'm such an idiot for not being there to save you." He sniffled,emitting a dry laugh and shed a small tear. "Is...is Little One with you as well? I hope he or she is happy with you. I love you two very much. I always wanted Little One to be a he,so that he will carry our duties as an amazing Assassin like us. Much stronger,faster,smarter,much gifted than us." He swallowed and roughly wiped away his tears. "I always hoped to settle down and have a family of my own. A family that I am proud of,a family who I will take care and cherish the most. I..."

Connor sniffled,sitting on the ground and wallow himself in his tears. "I have always dreamed of a perfect woman in my arms,having a fantastic home and have absolutely adorable children of my own. You are a part of it,you were the one who is supposed to be my perfect wife and the perfect mother for our children." He cried,burying his face under his arms,rocking himself back and forth. "I have always wanted to call Little One,Todd if its a boy. And if its a girl,you wanted to name her Hazel. You wanted that to be her name because you always tell me that my eyes may be hazel. You said my hazel eyes always shine,you could see the brown hues. I could always see you stare at my eyes and I would stare at you back. Your eyes are also amazing,so addicting to look at." Her eyes was all he could remember. Her beautiful,happy (e/c) eyes boring into his own.

"I am such an idiot for not being there to protect you. Please forgive me...I love you so much,it hurts and I felt like dying." He sobbed loudly,ignoring the pouding of the rain and tried so hard to compose himself. He was breaking down,his sanity almost on the edge and he wanted to just die because of his misery. "My heart that was supposed to pound on my chest,is dying. I feel so lost. So alone." He yelled,his fists pounding on the earth beneath him,eyes shut tightly with tears still leaking. "I hate this! I hate being alone! I hate being separated from you! I hate myself for letting you alone on our home! I hate letting you just slip from my fingers! I hate it!"

Guilt ate him completely,making him quite insane and his eyes getting blurry. He started pounding his fists on the ground,yelling 'I hate it!' until his voice became hoarse,and until he felt himself weaken. He laid on the ground,his eyes shut not as tightly as before and made himself calm and steady. His chest went up and down,his wet tunic starting to weigh him down but he didn't try to remove it. His ears just hearing the rain pounding on the ground and the rustle of the trees from the wind. Connor felt weak,heartbroken,and empty.

"Connor..." He was getting crazy,he thought. Now he's starting to hear her soft voice,a bit of warmth coming from above,but cold raindrops still landed on his skin. He's insane,right? He's starting to slowly become an absolute lunatic,which could explain why he could hear her soothing voice and her presence.

"Connor...open your eyes."

Suddenly,there was no rain anymore. As he opened his eyes,he could see the sunlight streaming from the trees,he could hear the birds started chirping and the rustle of trees and leaves all around him. He could smell the alluring scent of the forest,and he finally felt warm. Is he dead? Is he unconscious? Did he just disappear in thin air?

"Connor..." He slowly got up,surveying his surroundings and found himself in the middle of the forest. He looked himself to see his Assassin gear strapped on him,his hidden blades secure on his wrists but no bow on his back. He got up,listening to the voice closely and followed it carefully. "Connor...my love..."

Her voice plagued his mind,his eyes starting to water as he started to run and find her. Desperation pumped his veins,his voice calling out her name as he searched a whole section of the forest. He pushed the branches blocking his way and ran until he couldn't take it. Her voice just kept calling out to him,getting softer and softer as he turned on every single direction,to track her and find her. But he couldn't. It made his heart even more broken than before.

"Oh love...turn around." He did so,and tried so hard not to cry as his eyes landed on her. 'Finally',he thought,dropping into his knees and tears starting to descend to his cheeks. There she stands,glowing in her white dress and her (h/c) hair tied into a bun. Her (e/c) eyes was filled with happiness and longing,and it started to well up as she approached his shaking form. She sobbed,wrapping her loving arms around him and rested her face on the crook of his neck. He just sat there,crying and letting himself be blanketed with her warmth and love. He longed to be in her arms again,missing her presence and her loving embrace. He terribly missed her,so much that it hurts.

"Hush,darling...Hush now..." She patted his back,kissing his hair tried to make him look at her. "My love,please look at me." She pleaded,making his puffy eyes bore into her watery ones and she tried to give him a small smile. "I am here because I wanted to see you. But this will be the final time we meet." She said,her thumb wiping away his tears and kissed his cheek. "Do not be sorry,love. I know you did what is best to protect me and Little One. I know how much you wanted to stay with me,and I love you because you were always there for me and Little One. That was just an...unfortunate event and because of my carelessness,I got shot. I tried so hard to wait for you to come and rescue me,but then my strength that time began to wither away slowly. I cried so much,because Little One isn't...there anymore." She cried,biting her lip to stop herself from breaking down.

"Connor,my love. We live,we hurt,we grieve,but we live. As long as you're still breathing,I'm still here. I'm always in your heart,as long as you breathe." She whispered,cupping his cheek and bore her mesmerizing (e/c) eyes into his reddish ones. His heart clenched when her lips touched his,passion sparking by contact and he shut his eyes as he leaned in and kissed her. Her soft,plump,and very addicting lips finally touched his,and he finally felt a spark of hope inside him. They shared their last time of passion by kissing,cuddling,staring at each other's eyes,and touching each other lovingly. Connor would surely miss this. Connor would surely,and would not doubt miss her.

"No matter how much you want to give up,Connor,there is always hope for everyone. You will always be saved,if you cling into hope."