Random Shit I Think About

unbothersome.

Why do I even bother really. Why do I bother to put my energy into things I know won't last. What's the point? Why do we even act like it'll matter 10, 20, or even 50 years from now? Why can't we do something actually worth our short time on this Earth? I feel empty. The emptiness eats away at me everyday. The emptiness reminds me how I won't likely make a change or even matter. It's the knowing of that that makes me feel miserable. Optimists are always so quick to look on the bright side of things, I don't see how they do it. I envy them. I envy their ability to be obliviously positive even though things are clearly falling to absolute shit. Everything here is so utterly chaotic. Why.. can't we just be peaceful beings? Where's the love and unity promised? This world lacks everything good. We've drained it to become purely evil, dark, sinister and everything in between. ...Why are we here again? What's the purpose? Science can explain a lot of things but one thing it can't explain is why. Why? What if... what if there is life after death? Or what if there isn't? How would we know without proof? Why do we make empty promises? "Don't worry your grandfather is resting in heaven", she says, but how does she know? It's easy to assume that we'll be in a happy place after death even if that includes our loved ones. It gives you peace of mind. A temporary peace of mind, that is. It's all good until it's our time to pass. In that split second, before our passing there's that split second where we focus our thoughts on "What happens after I die?". There's that inevitable thought that forces itself into our thoughts that we all try to avoid that reminds us that everything here is temporary.

We become wasteful of our time and we become so involved with the things that don't matter instead of focusing on the things that do matter. My whole point is, everything is temporary and yet we don't appreciate our time here and we make the upcoming generations waste their lives away working and giving their energy away to a society that couldn't give two fucks about them. This world revolves around money, lust, greed and labor of the poor. It's sickening to see the world crumble but it's not like I can do anything about it. I literally couldn't stress enough how much my opinion in anything even matters. I live in the U.S. and this country absolutely sucks. "One nation under God" my ass, there is no oneness, there's only a lack of peace, unity, oh and everything else the constitution promised which we all refuse to even acknowledge. We have failed as the human race. As the "top species" of this planet. Everything would be better if we all just burned until nothing left but our ashes floating endlessly through space and time. Everything would be so much better even if there was one bit of everlasting good or at least guaranteed or even just a bit of harmony would be nice.