If only I could stay away from you

✨Draco Pov✨

It had been 2 weeks since I'd talked to sarina, she hadn't been in classes in almost a week and a half and I hadn't seen her in the halls. I was starting to worry.
The halls were dark as I made my way to the boys bathroom when I heard professor Dumbledoors voice.
"Twelve more dead because of the death eaters actions! " he grumbled.
"Yes but what can be done from Hogwarts?" Professor Snape responded.
"Nothing directly... all we can do is comfort those who lost their parents" Dumbledoor claimed as they walked away down the hall and out of ear shot.
The next morning I made my way into potions and to my surprise sarina was sitting at our shared table. I sighed out of relief, unable to hide the soft smile that came to my face. She was safe.
"Nice of you to join us finally Majost" I toyed. She nodded, making a hmm sound but not saying a word, Face buried in a book she didn't look up. I took a seat next to her, looking her over she looked almost.. skinner, if that were even possible. Her cheeks looked hollow and her eyes red a puffy still.
I reached my hand over to touch her chin but was met with a flinch, her head jerked sideways to face me. The fear and anger in her wide eyes broke my heart, did she really expect me to hit her? I realize I had been awful, but I had never hit her.
"I.. uhm" I stuttered over my words.
"Just... don't. Please " she said softly. I went to start up a conversation when Slughorns voice started the class. He drew the class out long, lecturing the whole time about the importance of reversal spells. My mind wondered to the time I had turned Majosts hair green and hid the reversal spell from her for a week. She was so mad at first but embraced the color after the first day and a half, curling her hair in such a way that made the color shine beautifully. Green had never looked so good, it annoyed me so much I had to reverse it early. My mind wondered so far I barely realized that class had ended and sarina was gone, walking out of the class room. I quickly packed up my things and trotted after her.
"Are you going to the Slytherin Halloween party tonight?" I asked, realizing I sounded suspicious. She looked over at me strangely, narrowing her eyes.
"Yeah actually, I have a date.. " she said, turning away from me.
"What are you going as?" I asked. She stoped short and looked at me like I was Hagrid's three headed dog fluffy.
"No comment about who would date someone like me? " she arched her eyebrow. My face grew red as she stared at me, embarrassed for my past behavior and for my current behavior.
"Uhm. No" I said coyly.
"Ooookayyy." She said suspiciously drawing out her words, continuing down the hall.
"We'll I guess I'll see you there!"
I called after her, to which she responded with a wave.
Shoving my hands into my pockets I walked off to my next class, shaking my head at myself for being so awkward.
The rest of the day dragged on with thoughts of sarina and you know who's visions flashing in my mind. Voldemort had chosen me.. and against my will I was marked. The pain was seared into my forearm, a painful, angry, red hot memory burned into my flesh. I barely slept, or ate.

As I stood in front of the mirror I pulled at my deep green suit. The dark green fabric complemented my pail skin and white hair, making my eyes seem bluer than they are. The music in the common room was already loud as I finished getting ready for the Halloween party in my private room.
"It's not a costume, but it will do"
I said pulling at the cuffs as I headed for the door. In the Slytherin common room decorations hung from the ceilings, streamers and banners hung on the walls and various nick-nack decorations lined the tables of food. Deserts as far as they eye could see were lined out on silver splatters. I stood atop the stairs, Looking across the sea of people that already congregated. Students in costumes of all sorts danced to the music that boomed throughout the room. I watched for a while before making my way down the stairs and into the party. Crab and Goyal were already stuffing their faces with food, typical. A group of Hufflepuff girls were dancing with Ravenclaw boys, and some Slytherins.
"Save a dance for me dracy!" Pansy yelled from the dance floor as I grabbed a fire whisky from the table. Not a chance in hell. I took a long swig from the bottle and caught they eye of sarina Majost walking in, with Jaxon. He was dressed as a muggle celebrity while she wore a red dress that cut off mid thigh and small horns in her hair. She looked stunning. Behind her walked her friend mark, a head taller than her small build he looked like her body guard. At the far end of the room I sat on a long leather couch, one leg crossed over my knee I held
A glass of fire whisky in my hand as I watched the party. I tapped the glass with my middle finger as it rest on my knee as I searched the crowed for Sarinas red dress. Taking a swig of fire whisky I stood to my feet, feeling the rush of the alcohol go to my head.
"Truth or dare!" Yelled a voice across the room and everyone rushed to the small cubby room. I leaned against the door frame , glass still in hand as the game started.
"Pansy truth or dare " a boy from Hufflepuff asked.
"Truth" pansy said
"Hmmmm... who was your first kiss" he asks.
"Draco.." she blushed, shooting me a look. I rolled my eyes and swigged the rest of my glass, catching the eye of my little Devil across from me. Her eyes knowing but.. sad? Could she really be upset at the fact pansy and I had kissed? The room ooooed at pansy's answer and she shushed them.
"Okay okay... uhmmmmm Laura! Truth or dare!" She asked a blond Slytherin girl.
"Dare!" She said excitedly.
"Okay... I dare youuuuu..."
She paused. " to switch bras with Jessie" pansy giggled. Laura accepted the dare, And looked ridiculous wearing the bra of her DD cup friend when she wore an A.
A few rounds went by as I watched sarina sit politely next to Jaxon, who's hand kept moving onto her knee, no matter how many times she pushed it off.
"DRACO! Truth or dare?" I hear my name get called. My eyes shot to the person who had asked, a Gryphondoor girl.
"Truth." I stated.
"Do you have a crush on anyone." Asked the girl.
"Yes" I answered without thinking, my eyes lingering in sarinas gaze a little too long. Her grey eyes starring back into mine as a blush creeped across her cheeks. The room hooted and ooed as if it was the most interesting bit of Information they had encountered in their life's. My eyes dropped to Jaxon who noticed me starring at Sarina, his eyes narrowed at me. I raised my glass at him, offering a sly smirk. Voices around the room Demanded to know how who, but I ignored them all.
"Okay.. mark. Truth or dare?" I looked to sarinas friend, our eyes met as I asked him, his green eyes pierced into me.
"Dare " he said, almost challengingly.
"I dare you to sneak into gryphondoor house and steal their mascot" I smirked, expecting him to chicken out.
"Done". He slapped his knees and headed out of the room. A few minutes later her returned with the stuffed lion that resided In gryphondoor house. Everyone cheered for him, slightly impressed I clapped.
A few more rounds went by and as the night started to get later, the dare become more... explicit. Girls were dared to kiss other girls, boys dared to seduce their crush, so it wasn't a surprise when a girl called my name and dared me to pick a girl for 7 minutes in heaven. I nearly missed my name again as I sipped angrily on my third glass of fire whisky, watching Jaxon press himself against sarina. My jaw clenched when he stole a kiss from her, and she allowed it.
I set my glass down on the coffee table and spun on my heels around the circle, extending my hand out as I went. I stoped at sarina, offering my hand for her to follow me.
"Little devil" I said deeply. Girls gasped at my choice and pansy stomped her foot. Sarina stared up at me with her big grey eyes as she wearily took my hand and I lead her to my room. Boys hooted and hollered, I saluted them with my middle finger as I turned the corned on top of the stairs. I shut the door and placed my head against it, my back to sarina.
"Draco?" She asked, her voice sounding nervous. I turned slowly to face her, she looked so out of place in my dark room. Her bright red dress and little horns stuck out like a sore thumb against my black sheets and wallpaper.
"Yeah?" I said, running a hand through my hair. I looked at her as she stood there, shifting from one leg to the other nervously.
"Is this a joke" she asked, dropping her eyes to the floor. I crossed the room with a few steps, taking her arms in my hands I rubbed the back of her arm with my thumb.
"I know I've been cruel, but this isn't a joke" I said. " I couldn't watch that Ass Jaxon put his hands all over you anymore.. " I moved one hand to her cheek and to my surprise she didn't flinch away. I rubbed my thumb across her bottom lip, watching the pink in her lips shift. Her eyes searched mine for a while until she finally pulled away, angry.
"YOU CANT DO THAT!" She rose her voice. "You can't pretend when people aren't around just to go back to being... you.. when people are" she said frustrated.
"You think I'd bring you in here, in front of everyone if I didn't understand that now.." I said, my voices raised. She bit her lip and avoided eye contact. I moved forward again towards her, stoping close pulling her in against my chest.
"Daisies and fresh rain.... ". I Said softly as her scent filled my nose, holding her close.
"Huh?" She looked up at me.
"The potion we made... I said I smelt nothing, you said you smelt strawberry's.... I lied. I smelt daisies and fresh rain" I said.
She starred at me for a moment or two and then let out a sigh.
"I lied too... I didn't smell strawberries... " she said.
"Oh? What did you smell then" I raised an eyebrow at her.
"Earthy tones with...Mahogany cologne and apples.." she looked at the floor. My eyes shot up, and then softened as I realized she smelt me.
We spent a few minutes locked in a hug, just standing in the middle of the room. I pulled back gently to look her in the eyes, he eyes seemed sad still and I wondered why. My gaze dropped to her full lips and I was
filled with the memoirs of how soft they we're. I slowly leaned in to kiss her, giving her plenty of time to push away, but she didn't. Our lips were inches apart when a loud bang sounded at the door.
"DRACO! 7 MINUTES IS UP. GET THE FUCK OUT HERE" Jaxons voice boomed from behind the door.
"Fun's up darling" I said, still a mear inch from her lips. I turned away from her, stepping across the room to open the door. I flung the door open and leaned against it, putting my body in between her and him.
"What do you want.. dick head?" I said.
"Times up, return my date" he said, trying to sound intimidating. My face hardened at his choice of words, his date? I hated it, the mention of her being anyone else's other than my own made him sick.
"Jaxon relax, " sarina said, pushing past me into the hallway. Wrapping her hand around his arm he lead her back to the party, I could feel a possessive anger rising in me as they walked away that only softened slightly when she turned her eyes back towards me, offering a small smile. I stood in the door way of my room for a few more minutes before returning to the party, running my hand through my hair I leaned against the railing of the stairs. The game had changed in the seven minutes we were in my room, to spin the bottle. I scoffed, rolling my eyes at the childish antics of needing a game to give you the courage to kiss someone you felt for. I stood off to the side, watching the bottle spin round and round, trying not to feel so relieved when it never landed on sarina.
"OY! What was that all about malfoy! You better not be fucking with her head!" A tall dark haired boy came up next to me, mark. I caught her glancingly at me as I turned to face him.
"No games here mate.." I said plainly, reaching for a drink as I came to the bottom of the stairs.
"She deserves better than you malfoy... she's kind and decent, everything your not" mark paused "if you were half the man she thought you for, you'd leave her alone" he finished. I chuckled, looking him up and down for a moment, taking in his demeanor. He was tall, about my height, but still a hair shorter. His green eyes held anger in them that he tried to hide, an anger not aimed directly at me. His brow furrowed as he looked at me, dark hair falling messy over his forehead. I went to sip from my glass as his hand stoped me. "You smell like you've had enough" he barked.
Letting out a deeper laugh I dropped the glass at his feet, letting shards fly and whisky spill. This drew the attention of everyone in the room, the chatter fell silent as all eyes were on us.
"If I'm such a deplorable person you'd find it no shock that I have no intention of doing as you ask" I say quietly through gritted teeth. I shove my hands back into my pockets and turn from him, taking long strides to exit the common room. I need some air. I slam the door shut with a thundering bang and make my way down the hall to the gardens. I must have had too much to drink to let his words get to me like this. How dare he tell me what I can and can't do, trying to intimidate me. I rested my hands on an outdoor sink, hanging my head low in frustration.
"FUCK" I yelled, driving my fist into the stone in front of me, causing my knuckles to bleed. I shook out my hand as I felt a presence sneak up on me, I raised my wand and caught them by the neck. Ready to obliterate them, I saw her eyes. Pleading and scared she shook under my wand, not making a sound she held eye contact with me, trying to silently will me to stop. My chest heaved as I took in her beauty, my heart ached at her fear, knowing I was the one causing it. I disarmed myself, lowering my wand from her, apologizing.
"I...I'm sorry, you snuck up on me" I said.
"It's Fine" sarina said softly.
Leaning against the stone I slid to the ground, placing my head in my hands.
"What are you doing to me?" I shook my head, asking the universe.
"I'm sorry? I don't understand" she said, sinking to her knees on the stone tile I front of me. Hands in her lap she looked at me, horns absent she sat in just the red dress, no longer really a costume. Raising my head I stared into her big grey eyes and watched her for a moment. Her pale skin looked soft, Rosie at the cheeks. Her eyes were less puffy then the days before, bloodshot redness had subsided as well. Her lips full as she looked on at me, slightly agape as if she had something on the top of her tongue to say. Her slender neck twitched as she swallowed hard, her pulse running just under her skin.
"Fuck it.." I said, shifting to my knees I gently grabbed her face pulling her lips to mine. Her kiss was just as a remembered it to be, soft, warm and sweet. Her body stiffened against mine at first, but soon melted into me. One of her hands resting on my side, she lightly griped my jacket in her fingers. I moved my left hand to her waist, pulling her into me as I deepened the kiss, slipping my tongue into her mouth, running it along her lips. My right hand remained at the side of her face, snaking around her head to run my fingers through her long hair. She reciprocated my every movement, with a gentle bite of my lip she smiled against our kiss, a soft moan escaping my throat.
I could feel myself becoming aroused, knowing that if I had her much longer, there was no telling how far we'd go. I pulled back, placing my forehead to hers as we panted slightly, unsure if we were out of breath from the kiss or the nerves.
"I can't pretend any longer... I need you"
I said, my voice sounding more husky than intended.
"For reasons I can't explain" she paused, opening her eyes she took my bloodied hand in hers, healing it with her magic. "I'm yours..." she finished.
I pulled her in for another kiss, this one deep and possessive as if I were marking her as mine. I pulled away from the kiss to look her in they eye when I saw movement behind her. Rushing to my feet I put her behind me, unaware of the cause of movement.
Jaxon and pansy lead a group of people into the garden, they filed in one after the next until the 5 of them stood before me. Looking back over my shoulder I saw the confused face of sarina as she stood behind me, her arms wrapped around her self.
"Awe look at Majost! Clinging to Draco like she actually means something to him" pansy laughed. "Good one Draco getting her to fall for you, best one yet!" The group laughed, all except for Jaxon. Who although perverted, seemed to hold a genuine worry for sarina at the moment. Sarinas gaze shot from me to the group, tears rising in her eyes as the realization struck her face. Pansy was insinuating I had perused her to humiliate her, and tears had begun to well in her eyes.
"Awe look she's crying! What did you expect sweetheart? Someone like Draco could never actually like someone like you!" Pansy's friend said with a laugh. I felt sarinas hard shoulder shove past me as she want to storm away, the hurt on her face overwhelming. I shot my hand out catching her wrist, to which she returned with a slap to my face.
"ASSHOLE!" She yelled, tears streaming down her face. I held onto her wrist as she stood before me, hurt. Anger washed over me as a gently pulled her back to my side.
"No... it's you I'd never go for pansy. Sarina is everything you wish you could be... She's smart. Kind. And beautiful. I was blind and cruel to treat her the way I have, now fuck off. All of you! " I said, my voice booming at the end, ceasing their foolish laughter, bringing silence across the room. They stood there for a moment in shock, disbelief across their faces.
"LEAVE" I yelled and they all turned to do just that, jaxons eyes lingered on mine as he nodded in respect.
Still holding sarinas wrist I slowly let her go, allowing her to run now if she pleased. To my surprise she stood still beside me, tears still falling down her cheeks. Turning her to me I whipped the tears from her face.
"I meant it... it wasn't a joke, I want you" I said softly.
"Draco" she nearly whispered, keeping her eyes on the floor.