In loving memory of....

The beginning...

journal entry #1

today started off like any other day.... it was winter we had been seeing quite a bit of snow this past week which was nice since I didn't have to go to school. 

so what does one do on a cold winter day alone you may ask, well... I sat alone in my room the entire day binge watching anime and forgetting all my issues, all my trauma..... my past in general as I did everyday since it all started going down hill and I became a mess.

now you may be asking "why do I need to know about this random persons life?" well I want you to not make the same mistake I did, I know sometimes you may feel alone but I promise you there are people out in this massive world that know what you're going through and they can help!

so I'm going to share with you my story written from my perspective and delivered to you in journal format. 

my name will be revealed to you at the end of this and you can tell me if I made the right or wrong choices in my life by commenting.. 

I'm 17... I was 17, I'm 5'4, longe blond hair, hazel eyes, and a fairly average build... 

these entries will take you through each stage of my life from my earliest memory when I was 3 to my last memories as a young adolescent, before allowing you to know my name I'll explain why I think I've made countless mistakes in m life...

ready?

let's start with the good and slowly add the bad.

I was around 3 and a half years old, my mother and father took me and my favorite stuffed penguin to the carnival it was around mid October there was a nice cool breeze in the air that carried the smell of pumpkins and cinnamon, we went from game to game and shared countless fried deserts. 

we giggled and rand around all afternoon, on the drive home we went out to eat it was a chilly night and the stars were very bright in the dark sky, I was on the verge of slumber in the dark backseat only becoming bright with the passing of the street lights.

and that was al I gathered from that wonderful day out.