Beau Babies / h.s

A Lot Of Hate...A Bit Of Love?

   It was the next morning, and I looked a mess. Annalise for some reason decided to continually cry which then woke up the other two, I hadn’t slept a wink, and now, I looked like the walking dead,

   To make it even harder, there was no one here with me. No Niall…No Harry… I didn’t really want his company, but I just wanted to talk to someone. For someone to know what it felt like to look after three crying babies, to know how it feels to give up your life, to change who you are…

   I sat on the window seat staring at their cots with wide vacant eyes, I could vaguely see the sun starting to shine through the thin curtains, it was dawn,

   Two hours later and I was sat like a zombie with Annalise cradled in my arms, she’d been crying again, I changed her, did everything I could do. But in all fairness, she was a baby, crying is what babies do,

   Breathing in deeply, I waited as the house became alive, I heard the boys surface, they went downstairs, then I heard the bell ring downstairs and the girls’ high voices. From where I was I could hear their laughter, their happiness. It was safe to say that I was almost green with envy,

   There was a light tap on the bedroom door, Danielle peeped inside. “Can I come in?” She asked with her warm smile,

   “Sure,” I tried to return her smile, but my face was so worn and tired, it probably looked like I was possessed by some kind of devil,

   “You look awful,” Danielle gasped, “I didn’t mean to sound rude,” She murmured, Danielle was so beautiful as the light hit her, her long hair was clean and curly. Her skinny blue jeans clung to her thin legs and her top showed off her tall figure. Even on a bad day, if there ever was one. She’s be flawless,

   “Don’t worry about it,” I whispered finding the energy to talk harder than normal,

   “Have you seen this?” Danielle showed me a magazine, shaking my head, I exchanged Annalise who started to cry for a magazine, “You’re on the cover,” She tapped it, I saw my face on the cover, I was with Ed, “And on the first page,”

   Turning to the first page, it was me with Harry yesterday, “Well they picked this up quickly didn’t they,” I sighed,

   “What happened?”

   “We just had an argument, long story short, I went one way he went the other. He came back here, and I went out with Ed for a while…”

   Annalise started to cry again, I looked at Danielle with wide eyes, she shook her head, “Go to bed, I can take care of this,”

   I gulped and stood up, “I’ll take a shower and get dressed. I’ll be back ten minutes tops,” I told her, I could tell by the look on Danielle’s face that she didn’t think me not going to bed was a good idea, but I knew that by the look of me, she wasn’t going to start an argument that she would definitely lose,

   Walking back to my room, my legs were stiff, I saw Louis emerge from his room with Eleanor, the two of them smiled, Louis waved. Not bothering to even try and smile back, I nodded my head miserably in their direction before leaving into my own room,

   I took my clothes into the bathroom with me so that I could be quick. Within five minutes I was out of the shower and within two minutes I was dressed. I didn’t bother with makeup, I stared at the heavy black bags under my eyes and decided not to bother,

   Walking back into the girls’ room, I only found Noelle, so I picked her up and took her downstairs, Danielle stood on the bottom step probably coming back up to get her, but I’d managed to beat her to it,