~♡Still Into You♡~ (SapnapxReader)

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And of course me. I'm like the cool parent: sticking to the rules when it's necessary, making sure everyone stays out of trouble. Being the second oldest and all. Only by a year, but that counts!

"I was just out with Sapnap jeez." I roll my eyes after replying, hoping that's enough for him to just drop it.
I look back to see them both in shock. Tubbo had the biggest smile on his face. Tommy on the other hand was in a different type of shock.

"What happened! Tell me everything!" He demands, looking like a strict father that just caught you secretly hanging out with a boy.
"I just took him to the daisy field, nothing special." I reply setting down my guitar on its stand. They knew exactly what I was talking about when I said 'daisy field'. I took them all there many times. It's where I take all the people that are important to me.

I lied. It was indeed very special to me. He is very special to me.

"Ee! That's so cute!" Tubbo exclaims, standing up to excitedly jump in the spot. "No no, it is not 'cute'!" Tommy exclaims, putting air quotes when he said cute. "What happened?" He added right after, standing up and crossing his arms as he made direct eye contact with me. "We just talked, caught up on some things." I say shrugging nonchalantly.

Ever since we moved here when I was little and even a bit before we moved my parents became fully invested in their work. Never having time for me. Before we moved when they didn't have time for me I would just hang out with Sapnap. But I didn't have him, so I was very lonely. I like having the band, having people around that actually want to spend time with me. It's nice except when (especially Tommy) acts like he is my father. I am a literal adult, I know he wants whats best for me, and would be hesitant about me going out with a guy alone. But it's Sapnap, I have known him longer then Tommy, meaning he should trust me when I say he shouldn't worry.

"What else happened?!" Tubbo asked excitedly. At least he is happy for me, being able to see my long lost best friend again. "That's about it." I reply, sitting down on the couch he was standing in front of.
"D-do you like him?" Tommy asks quietly, sitting back down at his drum set, spinning in the little stool so he was facing me and Tubbo.

"Would it be a problem if I did?" I ask leaning back into the couch, making myself comfortable.
"No, it's just I don't want him to hurt you." He tells me, grabbing the drum sticks from their little holder attached to the drums itself.

"Well, he won't because I know for a fact he doesn't like me back and I have excepted that." I inform him.
I felt a pit forming in my stomach as I said that. I mean I did like him, a lot.
"What makes you think that?" Tubbo asks calmly, turning to face me, going all therapeutic mode.

"I literally left him! Going without contact for years, acting like he didn't exist anymore! And finally out of the blue a huge coincidence happens and we somehow find each other again. If I were him I would be just a bit mad at myself wouldn't you think-" I explain, trying to fight back tears, trying to act like it's all ok, when it clearly isn't.

I have a habit of just bottling up my feelings and keeping them deep inside of me, not being comfortable with letting them out. Even though I have an amazing group of people that would help me. I have told them my feelings before, and cried in front of them, doing a whole therapy session. I am very comfortable with them, but right now I just feel like I should keep these feelings to myself. Not wanting to put all of this onto them.

"He seemed so happy to see you though, I don't think that's the case." Tubbo kept calm as he spoke, leaning towards me to try and comfort me. I know he can tell I'm about to cry. It's kind of embarrassing how well they know me at this point.

"I guess-" My voice was small and quiet, not wanting to do anything that would let tears fall, burying my face in my hands to hide my face. I hear footsteps approach me from in front, feeling a hand on my shoulder right after the footsteps stopped.

I look up to see Tommy crouched in front of me, his hand on my shoulder, and a sympathetic look in his eyes.
"He would be a fool not like you back." He says with a small smile, yet still keeping a serious face. He was definitely not the type to get emotional, or at least emotional In front of people. No matter how close he is to them, he just isn't that type of person.

"Bu-" I start to talk but was cut off by Tubbo speaking up.
"I honestly think he was so happy to see you that he forgot about the reason he was mad at you, to be honest I don't even think he is mad at you." As he spoke I felt a hand start to slowly rub circles on my back.

"I was just worried because I don't want you to be hurt, you are an amazing person y/n, you don't deserve a jerky dude to break your heart." Tommy says genuinely, making me smile at his words as I singular tear rolls down my cheek.
"Thanks guys," I thank them quietly, wiping the tear off my face.

Right as the happy tears comes in Tommy leans in for a hug, which I happily give him. Shortly after Tubbo joins, wrapping his arm around us.
In the middle of our group hug I hear my phone vibrate on the small wooden table beside the couch we were sitting on. I let go of the two Brits to check what it was. I pick up the phone to see it's a message from Sapnap.

Sapnap<3: Hey just got back and wanted to see how you are doing! :)

Tommy and Tubbo immediately notice me smiling at the message I just received. "Yeah, he totally doesn't like you." Tommy says jokingly, rolling his eyes at how dumb I was acting before.
"Shut up." I mumble before burying my face in my phone, fully invested in the conversation.

Me: I missed you!

My heart skips a beat as I press send on the message. Will he think I'm to clingy? I mean I was telling the truth- will it scare him away?
All my worries were reassured when he messaged back.

Sapnap<3: I missed you too! ;)

My eyes widen as my face reddens.
I watch as the three dots show up again immediately, meaning he is typing.

Sapnap<3: We should get together soon

This got me excited.
He really wants to see me?

Me: Sure! That would be fun!

I message back, remembering right away that there is a fair in a couple of days. It's a fair that comes every year. We have gone to it every year, and it never disappoints to be fun. I could only imagine how much better it would be with Sapnap there as well.

Me: There's a fair coming in a couple of days, it comes every year and it's really fun! We could go with everyone! :D

Seconds later he messages back.

Sapnap<3: Can't wait! ;D

"Well..." Tommy says eagerly, wanting to know what we were talking about.
"I invited them to the fair with us!"
I explain with a big smile.
"That's a good idea!" Tubbo tells me, standing up to play around with his keyboard.

Me: I can't wait to see you!

I message back, not wanting the conversation to end.

Sapnap<3: I can't wait to see you more!

The fair is in a couple of days. That's to long of a wait. I got really excited, not wanting to wait that long. But sadly I had to.

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TUBBOS SOMG CAME OUT WHILE I WAS WRITING THIS AND NOW IM CRYING ABOUT HOW GOOD IT IS, JUST THOUGHT YOU SHOULD KNOW <3

I'm sorry but I might not post for a couple of days, I might tomorrow but after this weekend I have school :[
But I'll try to update as much as I can :D

LOVE ALL OF YOU VAILD MOTHERFUCKERS <3