Breakeven (The Script Trilogy 1)

Prologue

Time flies fast as moments do.

Hindi natin alam kung kailan mawawala ang isang bagay. Nahahawakan na 'tin ngayon, sa hangin nalang na 'tin madadama kinabukasan... sa alaala nalang na 'tin mababalikan.

"Bakit hindi nalang na 'tin ibalik sa umpisa? Kaya naman diba?" I managed to utter them having vast of tears.

"Hindi na... may mga bagay na nawawala at naglalaho, isa don ang pagmamahal ko sayo, Antares."

He's now calling me by my name and this is the only time I hated being called that.

"Let me go. You don't want to be with somebody who doesn't love you, right? Hindi mo na pwedeng ipilit ang tapos na sa akin—" I cut him off.

"Tapos ka na ba sa 'tin o tapos ka ng mahalin ako? You can't just unlove me in a snap. Ano yon, biro lang sayo yung 10 years?" Tears continued pooling out my eyes.

And today is our exact 10th year...

Umiwas lang siya ng tingin at lumunok. We almost had each others life. Kabisado ko na siya at ayokong kumabisa ng iba pang piyesa bukod sa kaniya. Masasayang lang ba yung 10 years ng buhay ko because of his 'fell-out-of-love' bullshit? I know there's something here. I can see it in his eyes.

"Say it Gus, I know you have your reasons. I will listen, I will forgive you and take your explanation, I will never bring this scene up, I will totally forget everything, I will—"

Napapikit siya at nagtiim ang bagang, "Will you please stop screwing things up for me?! You are just making this hard for us! Hindi na kita mahal! Nagsawa lang ako, okay?! Will that be enough reason?" Ni-hindi siya makatingin sakin.

Nagsawa? What a reason! Ano ba ako, ulam? Maybe he has a different dish now, that's why.

Umayos ako ng tayo and made a straight face, giving him the coldest stare as I could, "Face me." He quickly gazed at me with shock.

He never saw me with this expression on. I am always cheerful, jolly and... lovely, but why can't he love me longer?

"Who is it?"

He closed his eyes then sighed.

"Just go home." Sinabi niya iyon ng mas kalmado.

But you are my home... this is our home...

"And please don't you ever cry for a jerk like me again, atleast not in my face. Be strong without me, Ares... I want you to never forgive me." he paused, "Also, I want you out of here tomorrow morning."

Then he left. He left me at the place where we made a lot of memories. This is the second place I only found comfort, first is between in his arms of course.

Nang marinig ko ang pagsara ng pinto ay parang naging hudyat ito ng pagbagsak ko sa marmol na sahig ng condo niya... namin. Ang daya niya. Iniwan niya ako, isang bagay na pinangako niyang hindi niya gagawin, and just like his promise, he broke my heart...my life.

Naupo lang ako habang nakatulala, wala ng luha na pumapatak pero yung sakit ay naiipon sa loob. Unti-unting pinipiga ang puso ko. I am always a crybaby pero hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit tumigil na ang mga luha ko sa pabagsak, sa pinaka masakit na nangyari sa buhay ko. Ang kaninang hindi ko mapigilan sa pagtagas ay unti-unting natuyo sa malalamig kong pisngi.

Well I guess, my tears, pain and sadness are now a seedling planted in my heart... growing another anger inside. Wasak ako... wasak na wasak pero what would this break up bring him? Freedom! Pero ako, stuck up lang... wondering what went wrong on us.

We loved each other equally but why—

Or did he even love me back then?

Why... just why don't we breakeven?

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DISCLAMER:

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the product of the authors imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead or actual events is purely coincidental.

You are reading a beginner's work so you might encounter typographical and grammatical errors. Don't expect it to be perfect. Also, I'm still young so I don't have alot experiences yet so please bear with me.
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© Antarespica 2021
Note: This story is UNEDITED