𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐘'𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐒𝐓 | 𝘭. 𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘯

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟗

"I'll think about."

"We'll talk more about after the expedition."

"Alright," you gave a sigh of relief.

"Now that's out of the way, we wanted to talk to you about our plan."

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"That's it," Erwin finished, "Did you understand?"

You nodded, Hange and Erwin stayed inside while you dismissed yourself out. You arrived at the rusted bench outside and sat down. Peering over the far horizon as the sun hung high above in the blue sky, embellished with fluffy white clouds that drifted lazily in the gentle breeze. You leaned back, thinking what you were going to do if you accepted to become a squad vice captain.

Usually whoever receives this recognition is someone knowledgeable, someone strong and worthy of this position. Average people would be overwhelmed in excitement when heard they are promoted squad vice captain but you were in a confused mindset. Your thoughts were a blur, you didn't know whether you could handle the pressure of being squad vice captain. Being squad vice captain meant dedication, you must beware of other's movements. Most importantly, handling and deciphering whether the squad captain is making the right decisions.

Could you handle this demand? 

You were promoted as squad captain (which was a bigger step than vice captain) before you were grievously injured however at that time you were still young and naive, thinking as any other person you took it without seconds hestitation. You weren't the same person you were before, you knew that, whether positive or negative, you have changed. Hopefully you will think of an answer soon, suddenly footsteps approached.

"So what do you think of being squad vice captain?" A familiar voice asked.

You turned around and saw Hange.

"I don't know. I feel like it's a lot of responsibility, especially when everyone trusts you and put their lives on the line while your in control of their lives. I don't feel the certainty as I did before. I just- I just-"

"Hey, take a breath," Hange comforted as she sat down beside you, "I understand, it's an important job, and takes a lot of effort. But you got promoted when you haven't been on an expedition yet! Isn't that cool?"

"I guess."

"Trust me, if you accept, you will be amazing. And you know, you should make up your mind pretty quick. Well thats if you survive tomorrow!" She teased.

"We love a little support," you elbowed Hange jokingly.

"Well, I said what I needed to say, I'm going to leave now," She said.

"Okay, see you soon"

"See ya."

You watch as Hange leaves, you suddenly felt an urge of excitement despite the anxiousness building up. You could finally go out of the Walls. You could finally see the outside. You got up and walked back whilst you stared at your shoes, kicking the small pebbles as you walked. Your shoulder accidentally pump into something. You snapped your attention back up.

"Watch where your going brat," Levi snapped.

"Sorry," you said a half-genuine apology, "Anyway, what are you doing out here? Don't you have paper work?" 

"Yes, but, nevermind," he quickly cuts himself off, he immediately looks away from you.

"But?"

"Nothing."

"Alright, whatever you say, uh, I'm free to talk to if you need...?" You said with an unsure tone, as if adding a question mark to the end of your sentence.

He looked back at you. His blue-grey eyes stared, the light reflected, giving a sense of life yet you couldn't feel the life anywhere. His gaze averted to the grasslands that stretched infinitely across.

"Do you enjoy the view?" You asked, changing the topic.

"I like to enjoy the view...and think of my best friends," He replied.

You were surprised to receive such an authentic answer from him. You noticed his facial expressions soften, somewhat in sorrow, most likely reminiscing about his past.

"Sorry..." You murmured.

"For what?"

"Your best friends."

"Why feel sorry when you haven't done anything wrong?"

You went speechless for a good while before answering, "I suppose it's a habit," you shrugged.

"It was all my fault that they were eaten," He started, still not facing you, "I had too much pride and left on my own will. If I went back I could have saved them."

"Everyone has regrets, but that doesn't mean whatever was caused is your fault," You said firmly, somewhere in you, you were still surprised Levi decided to speak to you other than just throwing insults.

You observed Levi while his focus was still fixated on the view. If it was you from before, the naive, young you, you would have gave him a hug but you aren't the naive, young you, that you used to be. You couldn't bear the physical touch of another again, especially of the other gender.

Instead, you gave a pat on his back, "You're strong, you've got this."

You smiled. The side of his lips twitched upwards, something close to a smile was what you would consider.

"I could really get used to this side of you," You chuckled.

"No need to get used to it because it will only happen this once."

You rolled your eyes, "you're ruining the mood."

You both headed back inside. You don't know much about Levi, he doesn't know much about you, but you two both have something in common, you both have regrets. Regrets that you both believe is your faults. Both costing loved ones life.

But this is the cruel world that everyone lives in. What can you expect?

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sorry for the inconsistent updates TT

im going to try and update every week or every fortnight, keyword: try

anyhow sorry if this chapter was boring or if its escalating weirdly or cringe and so on, this is a re-write of my old levi fanfic so- 

anyhow wholesome time 🙈