dear neil,
i saw charlie today. i actually saw him. i went to visit your grave and he was there. just staring at it. i didn't know what to do. a part of me wanted to run up and hug him, but another part just wanted to run away. i was so scared he would be mad at me.
i did what you would've done and walked up next to him. he was crying. he was holding sobs back just like he did at your funeral. he hugged me. it wasn't anything like yours. is that wrong of me? i keep on comparing you to everyone i meet. they never live up to who you were. i don't think anyone ever will.
we talked for awhile. he snuck out of school to come visit you. his birthday is in a few days. i wish i could be there to celebrate with him. they don't celebrate birthdays at his school. everyday seems miserable there. i missed him, neil. i missed him so much.
we miss you,
toddy
YOU ARE READING
dear neil
Romance"you were made for the stage, and i was made for watching you." a series of letters sent to neil by todd after his death.
