dear neil,
i'm sorry for these long pauses. i hate how much i apologize to you when you're unable to accept them. i spoke to knox this morning. i don't think he's over chris by any means but it was nice to see him smile. a part of me believes that we'll all become a group again, but deep down i don't know if that's possible.
i'm missing charlie today, a lot more than usual. i cant imagine how miserable he is. no one there will understand him. they won't be able to make him happy like you would. he's had to go through this alone and that's not fair. none of this is fair.
fair has become such an odd word to me. my dad always told us that life wasn't fair. i tried not to believe him or any of the shit he said to us while we grew up, but now i think he's right. life isn't fair unless you're alive.
in all fairness i love you,
todd
YOU ARE READING
dear neil
Romance"you were made for the stage, and i was made for watching you." a series of letters sent to neil by todd after his death.
