Something Different 💕

Chapter 19: When I See You Again (special)

2 days later at honesty's mom house
Honesty:*crying * mama i just don't know how to feel .
Mom: *holding honesty* i know baby your in a difficult situation. but i think you should go to the funeral, it would probably clear a lot of things for you .
Honesty: no i could never, i couldn't even face his family , or him.... i couldn't look at him in the casket like that .
Mom: your gonna have to get pass that baby. i'll go with you . but all this isn't worth falling out with Imanii.
Honesty: i know i'm just upset .
Mom: well you know what to do.

*Saturday Cameron's funeral *
i walked into the funeral and saw literally everyone there, it was so sad to see everyone crying . when i walked into the church imanii and kayla saw me and waved at me to come sit with them, next to them was alex, ty baby luis and nick. alex was crying the hardest and kayla held him. i also saw jayda with cameron's baby girl, she looks so cute. i tried to focus on the service but i felt a ton of ppl looking at me, i knew most of these ppl but i haven't talked to them since i was with cameron. when it was time to walk past the casket my mom walked behind me with her hands on my shoulders, i saw the tip of the casket and immediately started shaking. "it's okay sweet heart" she whispered in my ear. we got closer to the casket , i could see his face now and i couldn't take it anymore. i dropped down holding his hands and i let the tears flow "cameron why did you do all of this, it was never supposed to be like this" i said sobbing.
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*end of the funeral*
Cameron's mom: hey honesty
Honesty: *turns around* h- hi
Cameron's mom: i know it was really hard for you considering everything that happened and i just wanted to say that i'm sorry. *starts crying* we found this note when we found his body, i think it's for you.
Honesty:*gasps* f-for me ? *looks at her mom*
Honesty's mom: thank you * takes the letter* you all take care .
Cameron's mom: you as well

Just when we were all about to leave i feel someone fall into me.

Derrick: i've missed you so much *crying*
Honesty: *crying* i've missed you too little man.
Derrick:i'm sorry for what my brother did, you gotta understand he didn't mean it. YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME.
Honesty: shhhh*holding derrick* ik it's okay , i know he didn't. i love you
Derrick: i love you too.

(honesty's house)
as soon as i got in my house i dropped everything, sat on my couch and read the letter, as i opened it a picture flew out .

Dear Honesty,

i miss you, i think about you everyday and i think about how i should've handled things better. you changed my life tee, you brought me out of a really sad place and made my world bright again. when i was with you i forgot about all of my problems and worries. i don't want you to feel like you were the cause of my death because you know i've been going through stuff before you even came around but, i couldn't live with what i did to you. i regret it everyday. i just want to see you happy and unfortunately i know your not happy right now but i promise things will get better. i named my baby girl Ameenah because that means honest and your name is honesty lmao. please let her know that i love her. i just wish things could've ended better between us. me and your baby are up in heaven watching down on you. i hope to see you again one day.

                       a forever love, cameron

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I dedicate this chapter to an old friend of mine that i unfortunately lost due to suicide. please make sure your checking on those close to you especially those who subliminally cry for help. love you forever Demarco❤️.

LLD😢