Poems ~~~ I will update the title eventually.

Old Friend

You texted me one day

Said we couldn't stay

Told me all my wrongdoings

That we were a mistake

I sat there and took it

Asked for a break

Didn't want to rush into

Anything that later we would regret

I came back months later

Ready to make up

Also ready to tell you my grievance too

Cause i hadn't had that chance

But you told me no

You really didn't care at all

You didn't want to fix this relationship at all

I was in defeat

Months later and i still sit here

Wishing i could tell you how i felt

I wish i hadn't done what my therapist said

And told you our problems right from the start

But i wanted to give you a chance

And me one honestly too

To grow and get better

And then come back together

But

It seemed i was the only one who had done any growing

So i sit here in defeat

Months later from any incidents

Trying to get over you

But i can't

Because i still remember how your favorite color was yellow

I remember that you told me

In fifth grade

That your favorite food was mac & cheese

I know that your favorite band is the beetles

And even though i don't like them

I still knew you did and tried to "support" you in that

I know how much you cried

When you watched banana fish

And devil man's crybaby

I was with you through your wings of fire phase

I adopted one because you liked it

I knew you were struggling

And i tried to help

I tried to be some sort of support

I tried to at least be a place where you could get away from all that

But the thing is

You never did any of that for me

I don't think you noticed

When my favorite color went from blue

To black and red

If i asked you

You would no clue my favorite food was ramen

When i talked about the music i liked

And tried to send you videos of it

I ended up being ghosted

I never told you about the shows i watched

Or cried about

I didn't want to be judged

I was into the warriors books

But you just made fun of me for it

You knew i was struggling

And yes even though we talked about it

You ended up causing more problems

Than fixing ones

You told me flat out i couldn't be "alt"

Because i was to judgey

But you are the judgiest person i know

I know one person can't do everything

I know we were both going through hard times

I know you can't expect everything from people

I had just wished that you had been there for me

Like how i tried to be there for you

And i wish i wasn't sitting here

Wishing for something

That never was

*note: hey sorry for not updating, not a lot of people had read these so it doesn't really matter but still. this is a first draft that I wanted to post, so if anyone wants to proofread that would be great. also, this is about a friendship that ended during quarantine after lasting for about 4-5 years. might post more, might not. probably not for a long time anyway.*