1 in the same ( duncan x reader)

the secrets out- chap 21

sooo. time is currently.... 5:55am hey angel numbers.
i still haven't slept...and i made the mistake of walking out to see gwen and chris talking.
"your never up this early" they said at the same time.
"oh yeah just woke up and couldn't go back to sleep" i said laughing.
"hey i'm doing a confessional... you should join me" she said as she pushed me into the booth.

y/n confessional:
so uh.....
yeah.... i haven't really slept in the last 2 days. aha yeah. scared to sleep.
i haven't ate in the last 35 hours. which is fine. who needs food. i don't.
i didn't eat at all yesterday.... and i don't plan on eating or sleeping tonight either. so there's a plus. my life is fantastic.

i walked out to see gwen waiting.

gwens confessional:
i'm gonna get duncan to do this to.... but y/n seems tired. and we don't think she's eating. or sleeping. or doing stuff in general. we don't know what's up. but she had a little argument with duncan. and it just doesn't seem like her. it's like. somethings off. and she looked really dead and tired yesterday and today it's worse. she forgot to put on makeup. "OH SHIT MAKEUP"  there it is. she remembered the makeup. anyway i'm just super worried about her.

duncan's confessional:
she was up at 1am. and then when i woke up she was gone. also fuck you gwen for waking me up. i'm never up this early. but no. i'm worried. she didn't eat yesterday and it looked like she didn't sleep well the other night. so that's when chris decided to not have a challenge today. she's been more not there then ever. and she's always not there.
but somethings off. like really off.

so you know just putting on makeup i am. i look worse then i did yesterday.

"CAMPERS DUE TO THINGS WE WILL NOT HAVE A CHALLENGE TODAY. BUT WE WILL TOMORROW.MAYBE" chris said.

works for me. that means i won't get tired. i'm basically already skipping breakfast. everyone is eating it right now.
"come on y/n" duncan said. catching me putting makeup on.
"makeup?" he asked
"i wear it sometimes. plus i woke up early and ate already go on without me" i said smiling.
"i don't believe you" he said back
"i lie to you once and now you don't believe me?" i asked looking sad.
manipulative probably. but i girl must do what she has to. must stay awake.
i watched as he left. he didn't even answer.
maybe lying was the best choice. for the whole morning i didn't see duncan... or gwen.... or chris... or bridgette.

so i hung out with lashawna and dj.
it was fun. lashawna is a fun person i don't know why i don't hang around her often.
"I HATE HEATHER" she yelled.
"i second that" i said back
"girl courtney pushes you around like it's no buddy's biz why don't y'all vote her off. your so sweet and caring and she's a bitch for no reason" she added
"we don't know" dj added
"oh it's almost lunch" lashawna said
i guess it was... it was 12.
i didn't have a plan. i don't wanna eat.
i'll just walk into the kitchen and eat a single chip in front of duncan and gwen. and so i did. they thought it was pretty believable.
and with that i walked out.
now i don't have a eating disorder i don't think. NAHHH. (not shaming people who do. but i actually do this shit. i just dont feel hungry)
but on the bright side. they left me alone for sometime after that.
"have you ate" chris asked me.
"yeah i did"
"are you lying?"
"no. i ate chips"
"you ate A chip"
"i still ate"
"go fucking eat"
"i don't want to i'm not that hungry chris"
he sighed and walked off. next thing i know duncan appears in front of me.
"go eat"
"i'm not hungry"
"you didn't eat yesterday and you ate A chip."
"i ate."
"EAT MORE"
"NO IM NOT HUNRGY"
"i give up" he said walking away.
did that hurt....
yes. it did.

"go be with courtney then" i said softly.
"what did you say" he turned around and asked.
"nothing just do what you were gonna do" i said back.
"i don't wanna be with courtney... I WANNA BE WITH YOU AND HELP YOU" he said really loud.