SPARK ✨

✨Chapter no. 1✨

Noor ul ain pov :
Last six months were terrible. I knew this was coming but still seems so soon. All i was doing was crying in secret and showing everyone that I am strong  but i was all an act , Just for her. Just for the most important person of my life for my       "MOTHER..... 

let me take u back and tell you how my life started falling apart
  SIX MONTHS AGO......

Ammi had been feeling down for almost a month now always having trouble eating just skipping meals saying she lost her appetite , she was having painkillers to avoid back pain was feeling nauseous and losing weight as well. I was getting so worried due to her poor health and this sudden change in behaviour after forcing the hell out she finally decided to get a check up. They did many tests and came to the worst and devastating conclusion ever. She had pancreatic cancer. last stage you guessed it maximum have five year survival rate. It was so heart breaking just by the thought of her not being by my side like she is all I have got. losing her means losing both of my parents again

i mean yes my father is alive but i haven't seen him in for ten years , last time i saw him was when i visited lahore which was a decade ago. Long enough for me to forgot he even existed

"as if" myconscience mocked me

yeah yeah i'm lying i do remember him and misses him so much but it doesn't change the fact that he left me and didn't even contacted.

God that is not the main point we were talking about something else was.
Ammi got her first chemoradiation. its been three months now according to doctors she is not getting worse but not getting any better as well. the cancer is not further spreading but the organs it has affected are in not good condition. What we can do is pray. To be honest i was getting my hopes up that may be she'll survive this. Guess i was wrong after five months of treatment and constant bed rest she pretended to be fine but deep down i knew how hurt she felt.
I lived with my Maternal family, nano is THE sweetest human. Very supporting when ever Ammi scolded me she was their for me and taking my side even when i wrong but later take me to her room and help me realise my mistake.

She was worried sick because of Ammi's condition. Everyone was distracted and concerned except one person that was Aqsa mami might sound like a cliche but she always had issues of us living with them she thinks my mother and i are some bloodsuckers even though my mother have enough money to support me and my studies and can afford a house but nano insisted to stay with her she also thinks i flirt with her son which is bullshit zameen is like a  brother i never had. He treats me like he treats zara his sister. Zameen is really close  to me he always protects me. Zara is such a sweetheart , she is so bubbly and humorous. she used to lighten up my mood when ever i was feeling down.

Everything became part of our lives taking ammi to doctor and lecturing with her for not being responsible and having medication on time it was like we switched places, but suddenly life took another turn i came back from university and found out ammi was feeling sicker then usual. After insisting a lot zameen and i took ammi to hospital. doctor told she had an attack and the cancer is affecting her lungs badly. she was admitted in the hospital as she needed treatment. the news was heartbreaking but i had to be strong for her. 2 days passed still in hospital i barely visit home just a couple of hours to get the stuff , i barely slept like who can in this condition when your mother is hospitalised

i was sitting on a couch placed near the bed Ammi was laying she was sleeping. i was looking at her tired eyes , dark circles, pale skin. She used to shine with those emerald eyes and the most liveliest smile. Looking at her in this condition it's killing me and the fact that i can't do anything it breaks my heart. The next thing i knew was Ammi breathing heavily like she is suffocating. I panicked and starting screaming for the doctor to come. doctor came along with few nurses and they shifted her to operation theatre.

They asked me to go out i insisted but still the nurses dragged me out. After waiting for i don't know how long. The doctor came out of the operation theatre with pity on his face saying the words i was most scared to listen
"she is no more" doctor said. i had a break down after such a long time.

i called mamo told him everything soon he came fulfilled some formalities and i sat in ambulance to take her home. Zameen and Mamo came in car right behind the ambulance. The moments i stepped inside the house i was broken to hell. I hugged nano and we both cried she was consoling me and i was consoling her. her lose was same as mine like if a daughter lost her mother today a mother also lost a daughter.

Its been a month since she left. in this month i heard so many bad things people say about me such as "what a bad luck i was to my mother first her husband left her because of me and now she lost her own life because of me i was a "curse." A curse to every one who came in my life."

i was sitting in nano's room and reading a book "it ends with us"suddenly door  bell ranged I came to check who was it.

The moment i opened the door

i was in shock it was 

  "HIM"

Author note:
       Hello fellaz its my first novel and here's the first chapyy hope you enjoyed reading
just so you know English is not my first language so ignore all of my mistakes and tell me in comments which part you liked the most.

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sorry for the cliffhanger tho
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