(Suicide Warning) Proceed with your own risk. ⚠️
Phoebe POV
16:00 pm
It's time. I had to go out now before he comes back. Theo had just left to do an errand outside of town it but it wouldn't be long before he comes back. I had around 2 hours give or take base on the clock.
Hastily as fast as I could, I went to our bedroom and put on some clothes. A long sleeve shirt and jeans. Don't need to stick out like a whore. Before I came back out, I looked in the mirror.
What a disgusting shit you are
Bruises all over
You cant even walk with a straight posture!
HAHAHA
They mocked me again and again. The voices looming like a beast in me. I tried to quiet them down. Hitting my head countless of times, grabbing my hair. Theo does that a lot.
Releasing a few strands of hair, I made my way to Theo's desk. After countless of nights trying to locate where he stored my wallet. I finally found it.
A breath of relieve escaped. One step closer to paradise. Don't bother with my phone. He threw it to the wall after finding out I had been keeping in touch with my coworker a year ago. She was my only friend.
Family?
Well, I moved in with Theo across the country after we've been together just after 2 months. He said he didn'tnt want to be apart from me in just for a minute. We initially told them that we were moving just an hour away but that quickly went to the drain when he kept driving on the highway to the furthest state. I tried to keep in touch with them by calling them from day to day but as you could see that didn't work out.
Just the thought of that made me laugh. Oh, how far had we gone away from the empty compliments and I love you's.
I made my way out of our apartment and went to the nearest store I had to go first.
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I took the strongest dose among all the options. I need to be sure he doesn't wake up. God knows that man's a damn arse.
"Woah, that's a strong dose sweety. What are you using it for if you dont mind me asking? By the way, it would be $145." said the pharmacist.
"I mind, thank you very much," I scoffed. I passed the point of caring about people after knowing they are just all talk. Like they could help if they knew.
Making my way to the hardware store, I went to the gardening isle and took the sturdiest rope and hook that if I calculate it right can withstand my weight without snapping. Imagine if there was a hole in the ceiling. Bloody hell the landlord going to be mad.
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Finally made it back home. I looked at the clock.
15:45 pm
Shit, shit, shit. With all my might I carried the heavy hook and rope to the a space that I had created in the living room by the corner from a pile of furniture that.
I might need to ditch the hook later.
The sound of keys jiggling signals me to tame my hair cause he like a presentable woman.
Bullshit. Who lets their woman have blad patches and bruises on their body.
It's your fault you know.
Stupid Phoebe
You should just end your life
What is the use of us existing when we are already broken
Theo can find another doll
"Dolly! I'm home. I'm super tired. Can you be a good girl and help ease my pain? Hmm?"
The all too familiar turmoil rushed through me. After all this years, he has instilled it inside me. Constantly, brainwashing me, breaking me down bit by bit until I was all a shell. I came to my senses after hearing a music. Their music
Spring Day
I remembered her. The woman I was. Confident and strong. I will not succumb to him anymore. I will be free even if it's my only out.
"Of course but I was in the middle of making you your favourite coffee. I wouldn't want it to go to waste?" I did it. Two down, three to go.
"Well, since you have been a good girl this past few days. I don't see why not," Sigh Thank you. He went over to the couch, undoing his attire before turning on his favourite TV show. Tripping Point
I made my way to the kitchen making the coffee as usual before lastly crushing the pills that I have bought at the store before mixing it in the coffee. Sweat dreams arsehole.
"Here you go," I handed over the coffee.
"Hmm, I'm glad you have changed Dolly. You used to spit on my face with boiling water even if it burned your tongue. Stupid girl she was. I had to leave you starving for weeks on end just so you can function normally again," he scoffed.
"Learned your lesson for ever running away from me," he stood up. Shit, when is the pill kicking in. Please, please work.
He inches closer and grabs my hair "I have connections with every type of people. I have eye-,"
He fell with a thud.
Yes! Tears of joy filled my eyes. Quickly pulling out the rope out of its hiding spot, I tied it to the fan on the ceiling. Taking the kitchen chair to the dining room.
Preparations done.
Two more done.
Last one.
I can't run, he will find me. He always do. He will brainwash me but I don't think I will make it out sane if he does it again. You're doing the right thing, Phoebe.
Taking a step on the stool, I recall the lyrics to Spring Day.
추운 겨울 끝을 지나
다시 봄날이 올 때까지
꽃 피울 때까지
그곳에 좀 더 머물러줘
머물러줘
Past the end of this cold winter
Until the spring comes again
Until the flowers bloom again
Stay there a little longer
Inserting my neck
Tightening the rope
Breath...
I'm coming, wait for me.
Push..
TADAAA!!!
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FanficPhoebe was tired. Every single day was a torture. After being in a toxic relationship with her boyfriend, the countless assaults and throws of insult. She had it even though she had let them down. One night she decided she would end it all. But what...
