I'M SORRY! •Jikook • Sequel to 'Perfect two?' *DISCONTINUED*

Chapter 7

I'll just tell myself that it's

A phantom or illusion

Guess I haven't chosen which.

Look at me now, such a pitiful place

You found someone!

I thought that help erase

These crazy thoughts

that we never were broken

You can't see red flags

through rose colored glasses

I hate that I miss you, I hate that I'm lost,

I hate those dead flowers

You taped to your wall,

I hate that your okay and I can't move on,

I hate that somehow this is all my fault,

I hate that I'm wide awake watching that door,

I hate these long showers

sitting on the floor,

I hate in the end it was me who was wrong,

I hate that I don't really hat you at all.

Don't really hate you

I don't really hate you

Don't really hate you

I don't really hate you,

Don't really hate you

I don't really hate you

Don't really hate you

I don't really hate you

Don't really hate you

I don't really hate you

Don't really hate you

I don't really hate you,

Don't really hate you

I don't really hate you

Don't really hate you

I don't really hate you at all

But I kinda wish I did

I don't really hate you at all~"

"But the truth is Jagiya I don't wish I hate you, cause I love you with all of my heart. I regret what I did. I always will. I hope you can for give me someday and come back to me. But you probably wont because your with Mr. Genius /scoffs and rolls his eyes/ but I do hope. I have more songs to sing for you in a week. you promised to watch and listen to them, so please do" Jungkook said with his big brown doe eyes.

By the time the video was over I was balling my eyes out. "I miss him. I miss him so much.  Why couldn't have things gone different!? WHY!? I just want my kookie!" I said while still crying.

I felt tired but had to go to the bathroom so I got up and went. When I was done using the bathroom and washing my hands, I just stared at myself in the mirror. I was so disgusted with what I saw and all of my negative thoughts came back.

You're so ugly!

You should be skinner!

Jungkook never loved you, he loved Lisa forever and always!

Nobody likes you!

You suck!

You should just die!

When I heard the last one I just couldn't take it anymore, so i just did what I knew shut them up and happy, cutting. And so I did. I grabbed my secret razor blade that Yoongi didn't know about. And started cutting. By the time I stopped I had ended up with ten cuts on each arm. I realized my mistake and now Yoongi is going to kill me.

I'm starting to feel dizzy and before I knew it everything went black.

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TBC...