SUGAR LIPS | mikey x reader x multiple

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I WISH THAT WAS ME

× tw;; mentions of ab×se & neglect

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age 7

بابا

hit me over and over and over andoverandoverandoverandoverandoverandoverandover again.

"i love you"

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stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it.

i don't understand

all i ever wanted from you was love

why can't you love me؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟

لماذا لماذا لماذا لماذا لماذا لماذا لماذا؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟؟

"i'd never hit you"

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i sobbed and cried in my room. my head stung from all the crying and so did my body. it hurts so much i don't understand.

is this ok؟

he said it was for my sake.

HE SAID HE LOVED ME

he loves me he does he would never hit me he never hit me he didn't hit me he would never hit me he wouldn't hit me he can't hit me he can't we won't

why does it hurt

why why why why why he said he didn't hit me he said he loved me he said this he said it to me he held my shoulders tightly and stared deeply into my eyes as his mouth spelled and said those words he said it he wouldn't hurt me

it hurts so much

all i want is to be happy

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i want to be warm and happy

i'm so  tired  and thirsty but i can't stop crying

i need to stop crying he will hit me again i need to stop i need to stop

i stopped crying

i can't cry over pointless things he said crying isn't good i need to be ashamed of crying

but i can't help it i'm sorry i'm sorry

i slammed my head against the wall but the pain didn't satisfy me

i'm so tired i'm so tired

i heard loud footsteps and i immediately shut up and ran to my bed in fear. my heart is beating so fast and its so hard to hold in my sobbing but i don't want to be beaten again

i could hear kids outside of my window laughing and playing

i want to be you i want to be you why am i me why am i me