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Dear Journal,
It's like the universe hates me doesn't it?
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Dear journal,
Is God just creating a test for me? I feel like I'm failing it.
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Dear journal,
I learnt something from the test you've given me.
Everyone always leaves
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Dear Journal,
My heart aches everyday I wake up.
My muscles are worn out and sore from everything.
I thought that football and piano could be a distraction from everything.
But it's just not working out for me.
I quit football and piano.
And I'm thinking about quitting dance.
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Dear journal,
I walked into the studio and I immediately felt a large weight being put onto my shoulders.
I walked up to Mrs. Alicia and I couldn't say anything. I just broke into tears and she just embraced me into a hug.
Marlene tried to comfort me but I just pushed her away. I hate that bitch.
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Dear journal,
I visited the hospital to see her again. I held her hand and sung her favorite song. I know she would like it.
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Dear journal,
I hate talking.
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Dear journal,
I don't like to talk anymore. It just feels like there is a huge weight on my chest and shoulders. I just feel suffocated by everything around me. People ask if I'm alright. I just nod distantly and walk away.
I wonder how long it will take for me not to communicate to anyone anymore.
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Dear journal,
Hayes and Nash called. They asked if they could sleep over. I said they could, because why not?
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Dear journal,
Hayes and Nash told me that they're going to buy an appartment to be closer to her. Hayes says he misses Jess.
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Dear Journal,
I stopped talking to isaac
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Giving Up [DISCONTINUED]
FanfictionSequel to the book "Let It Be" - The description exceeds the word limit, so it is in the first part of the book- || © 2015 by Hayesbby. All rights reserved {Warning: this book may or may not trigger emotions} NOTE: DON'T HATE ME FOR LEAVING YOU HANG...