the Unexpected

Interview part 2

"I remember you said in the gathering that you are afraid because you don't know what's coming ahead of you. Are you sure that fear will not take over of you, specially now that you are clueless of what is coming next?" Kenneth asked me this time and his question is as meaningful as my statement back into that gathering.

"That's true, pero tulad po ng sinabi ko kanina nothing can stop me from doing this and I have my goal to reach the end. The fear won't go away, I know that, pero handa ako na harapin yun. If there is one thing that I've learned from second master, that is how to be strong and accept every challenges that life has to give." nakatingin lang ako kay Locket habang sinasagot ko ang tanong ni Kenneth, and I want to give him that compliment dahil sa kanya ko naman talaga natutunan ang mga bagay na yun.

He gave a flash of tiny smile, then I looked away para sagutin ang susunod na tanong na ibibigay nila sakin.

"Are you confident na makakarating ka ng initiation? Sa pagsasalita mo parang you know exactly what's going to happen." it's Noreen this time at katulad pa din ng kanina, maraming ipinapahiwatig ang mga sinasabi nya, gusto ko na ngang isipin na mainit ang dugo nya sakin.

For a reason I don't know. 

"It still depends on your decision. I would say, yes, confident po ako na makakaabot ako ng initiation hindi dahil sa alam ko ang mangyayari, pero dahil buo ang loob ko na itutuloy ko to hanggang dulo." tumaas ang kilay nya sa sinagot ko, I don't know if she is impressed or humiliated. She looked away from me and now, it's  Locket or Adrianne who will ask me, I think.

"The very first time I saw you in the gathering, I know you will be interesting. At hindi nga ako nagkamali, Ms. del Valle. You have such a brave heart, and you impressed me with that. Ganun pa man, the same blood of your parents run through that veins of yours and I am so excited to see where this is gonna take you." Adrianne is giving a smile that I can't figure out if he is really happy or there is just something dangerous thoughts inside his head.

Hindi tanong ang sinabi nya kundi isang statement and I didn't have to answer that. Kaya tumahimik na lang ako. Sa pagsasalita nya, parang maraming istorya sa Alpha ang hindi ko na nlalaman at natutuwa sya parang ako ang nagtutuloy ng kwento nito.

Is there something that I do not know?

"Are you so much alike of your mother or father?" Neil asked me  this time, simple question.

"No, I am very different from them, different personalities, different point of view and different way of life. Physically, maybe I got some features from my mom, I think." he smiled again to my answer, though it seems irrelevant now, napaisip ako kung anu ba ang pinupunto ni Adrianne sa sinabi nya kanina.

"Is it a pressure having a famous family, specially a famous twin?" Adrianne's turn again.

"That's what I thought and feel before. But no, not anymore. I learn to live my own to my own choice and I am glad I found my place, somehow." 

I believe, I found a place in our family simula ng sumali ako sa Alpha. Kahit na mas naging mahirap ang araw-araw at nawala ako sa safe zones ko, I've never felt so alive like this before.

"Fighter or giver? Which one describes you?" sa buong interview, this is the only time that I have to pause for a while para pagisipan ang isasagot ko.

I looked at Locket to ask for  some rescue, maybe he got something in mind to describe me but he just returned the gaze without any clue. All my life, I never risk so many things I always choose the safest option I can have. Which disqualifies me for being a fighter. 

Giver?

No, not me neither. 

"Both." it was Locket who answered for me and everyone's eyes are on him.