the milk fic....but it's jesusxjudas

milk i guess

Judas was kneeling in the bathtub, a towel under his knees and another under his hands, his head turned as he craned his neck to watch Jesus working. The older boy swirled the spoon around in the over-large bowl before tapping it against the rim and laying it on the counter. "You know it'll cool down a little once I get it in the bag, but is that good?" Jesus bent over next to the tub so Judas could slowly dip two fingers into the bowl, nodding once.
"It's fine."
Jesus nodded again, reaching out to stroke Judas' hair before standing back up and returning to the sink, where all of the equipment was spread out. The hook was already hanging from the shower curtain so Jesus could hang the bag as soon as it was full. "Go ahead and take the plug out, baby." His voice was soft, gentle. "And start with your fingers."
It was the gentlest of their "darker" interludes. No name-calling or hair pulling or punishments for noises of pain. It hurt enough on it's own, was degrading enough on it's own, Jesus didn't need to add anything to that.
Jesus felt a small tremor run through his body as he heard the soft moan coming from the bathtub, knowing the other boy had just extracted the plug. He glanced up at the mirror, watching the boy set the glass plug on the edge of the tub next to the bottle of lubricant. Judas picked up the bottle, desperate to fill himself as he opened it, dripping some of the lubricant onto his fingers and rubbing them. It was cold to the initial touch, but warmed up as his fingers moved.
"You're so fucking hot like that, baby," Jesus purred, from the sink where the bag was nearly half full. "Now, go ahead."
Judas flushed warm from the compliment, his wrist sliding down along his waist, hipbone, the curve of his ass. And then his fingers were poised, resting against his entrance before pressing in. He was already loose from the plug so it was an easy intrusion. He didn't even bother with more lubricant before pressing a third finger in, moaning outright at the stretch. He started as he heard the click from Jesus hanging the bag. "Already?"
"Don't sound so disappointed," the boy chided softly. "You can keep your fingers in for a second." He almost added a soft 'slut', but stopped himself. Jesus leaned down, reaching for the bottle of lubricant, letting himself hover over Judas for a moment, his breath tickling the back of the boy's neck. "Just think about everything I'll do after," he whispered before straightening back up and slicking lube across the tip of the nozzle and his own fingers. "Okay."
Judas whined, but slowly pulled his fingers out anyway. He wasn't empty for longer than a few seconds, Jesus' fingers immediately sliding over his opening before pressing in, then pulling out to press in the tip of the nozzle. "Breathe," he murmured, fingers running down the boy's spine. "I'm going to now, okay?"
"Wait," Judas choked out.
"I'm going to now," Jesus repeated, voice a little harder this time. "You're fine." He kept his fingers running along the boy's spine as he loosened the clamp.
Judas bit his bottom lip, moaning as he felt the first rush of the warm milk sliding into his body. The beginning of the enema was always like Jesus' fingers were now, smooth and soft almost. The cramps would come soon enough, but Jesus' fingers would still be the same.
When they started, one of Judas' hands flew up to his stomach and Jesus stopped the flow without a word, letting the other boy massage his abdomen to ease the pain. "Just tell me."
"Okay," Judas whispered, his hand still on his stomach. Jesus loosened the clamp again and Judas felt the warmth continuing to enter his body. He continued to try to massage away the dull ache of the cramps as he felt his stomach slowly begin to expand from the amount of liquid he'd taken. "Stop," he choked out again. He wasn't supposed to ask how much, but he was desperate to know. He'd felt like he'd taken half already, but he knew it was probably more like a quarter of the bag. "Jesus?" he asked, voice close to cracking. "I-I . . . Jesus." His voice was weak.
"You're doing great, baby." The boy leaned down, letting soft kisses feather along Judas' lower back. "So good."
The tears were starting to build up. Juas could feel them in his chest, waiting there, another ache in his body. "I don't . . . I . . ." He let his head fall forward, trying to slow his breathing, trying to focus on Jesus' fingers instead of the liquid inside him. "Okay," he whispered, voice cracking as the first tears slid down his cheeks.
The flow continued and Jesus slowed the flow without a say so after five minutes or so. "You're taking it so well, Judas," he cooed. "You've got half." He usually didn't tell Judas how much he'd taken, but it had been awhile since they'd done this and he didn't want the boy to break before he managed to get both quarts in.
"Half?" Judas asked, voice timid, as if he wasn't sure if he should be relieved or disconcerted.
"Mhmmm." Jesus leaned forward, letting his lips kiss the back of Judas' neck, then between the boy's shoulder blades. "Are you ready for more?" When Judas hesitated, Jesus squeezed his hip. "You can take it, baby. You've done this before."
Judas' head nodded a fraction of an inch, his breathing already labored. He gave a small squeak as the milk started slipping into his body again. "Please, please, I can't." He shook his head, the tears coming out for real now. Jesus clamped the nozzle again. "I can't, Jesus, please. I . . . I need to . . . please."
The older boy reached his hand down to Judas' stomach, the curve of a belly that wasn't there usually. "I know you can take this," he said, voice low but not angry or disappointed. "I know you can, Judas." He let their fingertips brush. "But I won't make you," he added. "It's up to you."
Judas hated that. It would have been so much easier to go along with it if Jesus hadn't given him the choice. Now it was up to him to decide if he wanted to be selfish and disappoint his boyfriend and not get rewarded or just go along with it and deal with the pain. "I'll try," he mumbled weakly, squeezing his eyes shut and biting his bottom lip between his teeth as he felt the flow again.
Jesus slipped his hand down Judas' stomach to wrap around his cock, gently stroking, trying to turn the whimpers that the older boy was now making into moans. "So good, baby," he kept whispering over and over. "You're taking it so good."
"H-Hurts," Judas choked out. "Break?"
Jesus locked the clamp again, letting Judas rub at his stomach and try to catch his breath. "It's almost all in," he said gently, still stroking the other boy's erection. "Just a little bit more. I know you can take it, Judas."
"How much?"
The question hung heavy in the air for a moment. Judas wasn't supposed to ask and he knew it, but he also knew Jesus never spanked him or punished him during an enema, so the worst possibility was simply that the other boy wouldn't tell him.
"Probably four ounces," Jesus answered finally. "I'm going to start it again, okay? You can take this all in one go."
Judas nodded, gritting his teeth and counting silently in his head, hoping it wouldn't take longer than a minute to finish. He was only a few seconds over when the flow stopped and Jesus planted a kiss to the small of Judas' back. "I'm going to switch it out for the plug, okay? Keep it in."
Judas tightened his muscles, his toes curling as he did so. It hurt, tensing up along with the dull ache in his abdomen. Even with all his tightening, a little bit of the milk/water mixture escaped, sliding down the inside of his thigh. Then the plug was in and he could relax his muscles, but only somewhat. Jesus picked up a washcloth and wiped at the liquid that had slid down Judas' skin.
It wouldn't be too long, Judas knew, but it always seemed an eternity. Five minutes or ten minutes could feel like hours. Jesus' fingers slid up Judas' back until they were twisted, gently, in his hair. "I can't wait to get you on the bed," he said thickly, voice low and gravely. "Gonna shove my tongue in you so deep, baby."
Judas moaned outright, despite the dull pain in his muscles and stomach. It was a low moan, soft, but a moan nonetheless, and Jesus smiled at the sound. "Is that what you want?" the older boy continued in the same tone. "You want my tongue in you, want me fucking your ass with my mouth? You're going to taste so fucking good, baby." His fingers tightened slightly in Judas' hair. Not enough to cause any pain, just enough to make the boy gasp, then moan again. "Then I'll fuck you. So hard, baby, so God damn hard. So deep inside you. And then you'll take my cum in your pretty mouth."
Judas' was whimpering, his hips moving ever so slightly, squirming. "P-Please?" he choked out. "Please?" He was begging for release. He knew it hadn't been long enough, but if Jesus kept it up, he knew he wouldn't be able to hold it in.
"I think you can hold it for another couple of minutes." But Jesus let go of Judas' hair and sat back slightly, just letting his hands run slowly up the boy's sides. The younger boy was quiet, just a few whimpers leaving his mouth, but still squirming. Judas let his hands slip lower until he was firmly squeezing Judas' ass in both hands. "Almost, baby. Almost."
There was another minute or so, Jesus' fingers skimming over the curve of Judas' cheeks and the older boy trying not to lose anything, trying to keep his muscles tensed just enough. "Okay." Jesus stood up, slowly, kissing Judas on the back of the neck before stepping out of the tub. "Slowly," he warned the boy. "Don't lose anything, okay?" He held his hands out, letting Judas take them as he stood and gingerly climbed out of the tub.
Jesus lifted up the lid of the toilet seat and helped Judas to sit. This was always when Judas started to cry again. He hated it, hated how Jesus was there for the release. So humiliating, worse than threats of letting Matthew watch or having Peter fuck him that one time while Jesus took Polaroids. "Please, just . . . I can," Judas said. "I'm fine. I can."
Jesus looked stern, frowning, shaking his head slightly. "Stop."
Judas cried harder, bringing his hands up to push at Jesus when the boy moved closer, but too submissive to actually do it as the boy reached between his legs, fingers closing around the end of the plug. "Please," Judas whispered again. "Please, Jesus."
The boy ignored him. "Don't let it go until I tell you to." He let Judas' face fall into his shoulder. The boy was shaking from his choked sobs as Jesus slowly pulled the plug out. He set it on the counter next to the bowl he had mixed the milk and water in. One arm came up around Judas. Despite his tears, the boy was still clenching, tighter than probably necessary. "Okay, go ahead."
Judas shook his head. "No." He cried harder when Jesus pressed his lips against the boy's temple. "Please."
"Judas. Now."
The boy was still crying, clinging desperately to Jesus as the first drops of the mixture began to slip out. And then, like always, he realized he really had no choice and just let go, sobbing harder as he heard the liquid falling into the toilet. For Jesus' part, he just held the boy, fingers running down his back, cooing soft sentiments to him. "Good boy, good job, Judas."
Finally the noises slowed and Jesus took a step back, letting Judas wipe and flush the toilet. They both washed their hands in the sink and Judas blew his nose. "I'm sorry," he whispered, refusing to look at Eric. "I . . . I didn't mean to . . . I know you won't hurt me."
Jesus' cool fingers, still slightly wet from the water, slid under Judas' chin, tilting the boy's face up to meet his eyes. "Thank you," he returned, leaning in and kissing him, soft at first, then harder, tongue slipping in. "Bed now," he added, unable to contain his smile as he felt Judas' lips curve upward against his.
They walked out to the hotel bedroom area and Jesus nodded silently, indicating Judas should assume the position on the bed. "Back or . . . or knees?"
"Knees if they're not too sore."
Judas would take a lot more than sore knees for a rimjob, as he'd clearly demonstrated, so Jesus nodded his approval as the boy got on all fours on the bed. Judas kept his head facing forward, resisting the urge to look over his shoulder and watch Jesus. The older boy loved that, how he didn't have to order the boy to do it. Judas obeyed the unspoken command of his own accord.
The bed sunk down as Jesus knelt behind Judas, hands squeezing the boy's hips. Jesus leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to Judas' entrance, smiling when he heard the moan. His mouth opened, tongue slipping out, licking in broad, even strokes, knowing it would do nothing but tease Judas, torturing him. And, truthfully, it was all Judas could do to keep from pressing his ass back on Jesus' face while begging 'more more more'.
Jesus sat up and leaned forward, pressing two fingers to Judas' lips. The boy sucked them into his mouth without a word, his tongue sliding around the digits, trying not to get overeager, trying not to just beg Jesus to fuck him and start grinding his hips into the bed. When Jesus pulled his fingers from the boy's mouth, he leaned in for the kiss, smiling as he swallowed the moan from the intrusion of his fingers entering Judas' hole while they were still kissing.
Then his mouth was gone and Judas' fingers twisted in the bed sheets knowing what was coming, the muscles in his body tensing in anticipation. Jesus' fingers pulled slowly, evenly, opening Judas up just enough to slip his tongue in, licking around the edge of Judas' entrance. He licked over his own fingers as he slowly added another digit from each hand, pulling Judas more open, exposing him more. His tongue slipped in deeper and Judas tried so hard not to push his ass back on Jesus' face.
The older boy's tongue started dipping in and out, slow and first, then quicker. Judas was moaning, head thrown back, hips barely rocking. Jesus pulled his tongue out and his fingers, letting his lips press against the hole that was still open to the air. He began to suck and Judas let out a stream of expletives that Jesus had never heard before. He let up on the pressure, his tongue slipping back inside once more, teasing, pulling out to trace around the inside.
"Fuck me?" Judas asked, voice high-pitched and uncertain.
Jesus pulled off almost immediately, but didn't straighten up yet, pressing two fingers into Judas abruptly, smirking at the boy's gasp. He slowly twisted them. "You want me to fuck you?" he asked as if he hadn't heard, voice casual.
"Please, Jesus," the older boy returned desperately, pressing back against the fingers, his head falling into the pillows as he collapsed on his arms, support following to his elbows.
The fingers slipped out and Jesus helped turn Judas to his back, kissing him softly on the mouth, enjoying Judas' tongue probing his mouth curiously, searching for the taste. He pulled away after a moment and the younger boy gave an airy sort of sigh. Then he was between Judas' legs, bending them at the knee and separating them, settling between the thighs before he pushed in, no lubricant and no warning.
Judas made a low noise in the back of his throat at the burn, the stretch. He'd been waiting for this. Jesus hadn't fucked him for a week, not properly. Toys and fingers and a fist, but not this. So simple, just them. Nothing artificial. He wrapped his arms around his boyfriend's neck, leaning up to kiss his neck. They looked like any other couple just then, he mused. No one would have been able to look at this scene and guess that Judas had just been given a two quart enema or that the other day he'd been made to stand in the corner for an hour after Jesus had spanked him fifty times with a hairbrush.
Jesus could tell Judas was thinking and he angled his hips, shoving in roughly. When Judas' eyes popped open even wider and he let out the tiny squeak, he knew he'd found the spot. All semblance of thought seemed to evaporate from Judas' features as he just gave in and started rocking against Jesus' hips, moaning. He reached for his boyfriend's hand, pressing the palm against his throat. "Please," he whispered.
Jesus didn't need to be told twice, squeezing down on Judas' neck, releasing after a moment to let him gasp for breath. Then his hand tightened again and they repeated the pattern until his boyfriend started shaking his head, not wanting to use the safe word, but wanting Jesus to know he'd had enough. His hand fisted in Judas' hair then, squeezing tight enough to hurt, but not hard enough to pull the hair out. "Touch yourself," Jesus breathed.
Judas obeyed immediately, one of his hands falling from Jesus' neck to slip between them, wrapping around the base of his cock, stroking in a slow rhythm that contrasted with the thrusts. He didn't want to cum yet, but he knew he didn't have a choice anyway. He'd cum when Jesus told him. That was the rule.
"Faster," Jesus growled, shifting his weight so he could press in deeper. "I want you close, Judas. Tell me when you're close."
The boy nodded, quickening the speed of wrist obediently, letting his eyes shut for a moment before he opened them back up. Jesus liked to watch him, said he could see Judas melt through his eyes when they were in bed. He felt the hand tighten in his hair slightly and he stopped moving. "Close," he choked out.
Jesus smiled, letting Judas wonder if he was going to have to hold it, have to wait, have to worry if he could. But it was late and they had to be up in six hours. "When you feel me come, you can," he said, nipping Judas' bottom lip between his teeth. The thrusts got impossibly harder after that, but only for a moment.
Jesus bit the inside of his cheek to keep from yelling as he felt himself explode and then Judas' wrist was flying as he moaned, low and whorish. Jesus could feel Judas' cum hit his stomach as the older boy started swearing, his ass clenching down on Jesus' cock as his orgasm tore through him, leaving him breathless and gasping for air.
Judas collapsed prematurely, still feeling his orgasm rocking through him, but unable to move, unable to breathe, unable to think. And then he felt Jesus pull out, leaving him empty and loose. He whimpered at the loss, turning and pressing his face into the boy's chest as he laid down beside Judas in the bed.
Jesus' arms came up, feeling Judas' body trembling. "Baby, baby," he murmured. "Shhh. It's all right." He kissed the boy's temple, fingertips gently massaging feeling back into Judas' muscles. "We're going to sleep now, okay? Early morning."
Judas whimpered, nodding, wondering if he'd be able to walk properly the next day. "Jesus?"
"Yeah, baby?"
"I love you."
"I love you, too, Judas." Jesus waited until he'd stopped shaking before he got up to turn out the lights and set the alarm on his phone. Then he crawled back into bed and held Judas until he fell asleep before he got up to clean the bathroom and put the equipment back in their suitcase. He was only going to be running on two hours of sleep the next day, but it had been worth it.