Dear diary,
Today I noticed this really pretty girl in Starbucks. She ordered an iced coffee. She had long brown hair and pretty eyes. I am kind of jealous because she is so beautiful. I wanna be her. With Simon is everything alright, I still love him very much!
Lots of love, Sarah
27th of June 2019
Dear diary,
Today I was bored in English class and I started drawing. I didn't really look at it, I just did it, When I looked at my paper, I noticed I drew a girl. It was the girl from Starbucks. Tomorrow I am going back and hope I see her again. She seems nice, and I really want to be friends.
Lots of love, Sarah
28th of June 2019
Dear diary,
So today I went back to Starbucks and the girl was there again. I talked to her and she is amazing. When she smiles, her eyes become lighter. She has a smile that can make the North pole melt in 3 seconds. We laughed a lot, and I gave her my number. When I was home, I saw that she texted me. We chatted all day and now it's almost midnight. Me and Simon had a fight, but it was his fault! He said I looked too much at girls. He thinks I'm a lesbian. I love him, but sometimes he is really stupid. Goodnight,
Lots of love, Sarah
29th of June 2019
Dear diary,
Today was the last day of school. I talked to Simon and we broke up. He can't handle that I'm looking at girls. I know I'm not gay. I loved him very much, but we didn't talk anymore so it didn't work out. For the rest of the day, I talked to Starbucks girl. Her name is Nox. Tomorrow we're gonna meet up again. She is going to spend the night at my house. She is the only friend I have. I hope my parents like her.
Lots of love, Sarah
30th of June 2019
Dear diary,
Yesterday Nox spend the night, so I couldn't write. We talked and stayed up all night. I don't know what it is, but every time I look at her, I get butterflies in my stomach. I searched on google and it says I'm in love. But I can't be in love with a girl, I'm not gay. So, I took a test, and it says I'm bi. What does that even mean? I'm going to google it later. My brother said that the look in my eyes say I love Nox. I don't think so, it doesn't feel the same as when I was with Simon. When I was with him, I saw that look in his eyes and I thought I looked the same at him. I thought that was love. Isn't it? I don't know...
Lots of love, Sarah
2nd of July 2019
Dear diary,
I found out what bisexuality means. Bisexuality is romantic feelings, sexual attraction, or sexual behaviour towards both men and women, or romantic feelings or sexual attraction towards people regardless of their sex or gender identity. That's the definition. I don't know. She is just so pretty. And tonight, I had a strange dream. I was cuddling with Nox. I don't know why I dreamed this. Do I love her? I think I do. But does she love me back? Does she even like girls? Why is this so hard? Why couldn't she just be a cute boy? That would be so much easier. F'ck, I need to apologize to Simon, he was right. I do like girls in that way.
Lots of love, Sarah
3rd of July 2019
Dear diary,
I texted Simon and he said it was okay and he still wants to be friends. It's nice to be friends with him, he is easy to talk to. I also talked to my brother. He says he knew it, and he loves me no matter what. Nox and I are going to hang again tomorrow. I don't know what to do. I love her, but don't know what she feels. Does she feel the same? Does she like girls like I do? I don't know. The last week was so lovely, and I don't want to mess it up. We became so close. I know a lot about her. Her favourite colours are pink, and orange and her favourite artist is girl in red, I don't even know who that is. I just love Nox so much. I want her to be mine and hold my had and and... And I want to kiss her.
Lots of love, Sarah
4th of July
Dear diary,
I wrote a song about Nox and I sang it to her today. This was the song.
Baby, I, I wanna know
What you think when you're alone
Is it me, yeah?
Are you thinking of me, yeah, oh?
We've been friends now for a while
Wanna know that when you smile
Is it me, yeah?
Are you thinking of me yeah, oh, oh?
Girl, what would you do?
Would you wanna stay, if I were to say?
I wanna be last, yeah
Baby, let me be your, let me be your last first kiss
I wanna be first, yeah
Wanna be the first to take it all the way like this
And if you only knew
I wanna be last, yeah, baby, let me be your last
Your last first kiss
Baby, tell me what to change
I'm afraid you'll run away if I tell you
What I wanted to tell you, yeah
Maybe I just gotta wait
Maybe this is a mistake
I'm a fool, yeah
Baby, I'm just a fool, yeah; oh, oh
Girl, what would you do?
Would you wanna stay, if I were to say?
I wanna be last
Baby, let me be your, let me be your last first kiss
I wanna be first, yeah
Wanna be the first to take it all the way like this
And if you only knew
I wanna be last, yeah, baby, let me be your last
Your last first kiss
Your last first kiss
Girl, what would you do?
Would you wanna stay, if I were to say?
I wanna be last, yeah
Baby, let me be your, let me be your last first kiss
I wanna be first, yeah
Wanna be the first to take it all the way like this
And if you only knew
I wanna be last, yeah, baby, let me be your last
Your last first kiss
I wanna be last, yeah, baby, let me be your last
Your last first kiss
Oh-oh-oh
I wanna be last, yeah, baby, let me be your last
Your last first kiss
And then she kissed me. It felt so good. I want to be her one and only, and now I am.
Lots of love, Sarah
5th of July
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Hi, this is a story based on Bi_Bish69. Thank you very much for your help. English isnt my first language so sorryif I made mistakes.
And if you also have a come out story or something else, dm me please!
Lots of love, Victor
