omniscient
A couple of weeks later
Alexis and Anna....
Alexis and Anna have gotten closer to the point they both help each other cut and burn they know there friend ship is fucked up but they both needed somebody to be there for them and they had each other...
"You ready" Alexis asked Anna and she nodded Anna grabbed Alexis thigh and Alexis grabbed Anna arm and they both hurt each other and after they were done they never spoke of it like they always did just forget about it and move on from it, Alexis knew it was wrong to do it but she was exhausted mentally and emotionally she felt like everybody was depending on her it would be nights where she would sit in her room and cry cause she felt like a burden to other people lives. She felt like they were better without her she always pushed her feelings aside to hear other peoples problems hoping that when she needed somebody to talk to they would do the same she just wanted somebody to talk to about everything but she never felt wanted her dad didn't want her when she was born her mother wasn't every fit and she died giving birth to Alexis but not only did her mother die Alexis was supposed to have a sister but the bath didn't make it and Alexis dad never wanted her because he blamed her for the death of his wife and daughter but in Alexis mind she though Lexi was always her sister that just never got born but nun of Alexis family wanted her after her dad told them she killed the other baby and mother he always told her she was a "mystery baby" Alexis never knew what that meant till she got in middle school and one of the kids called her that and she asked what that meant and they told her it meant they were an accident and that they weren't supposed to be here. Alexis went home crying that day and when she got home her dad was drinking like usual so she asked him "Dad what does it mean to be an accident baby" she asked him and he looked at her with disgust that she even called him dad "it means that you weren't planned you wasn't supposed to be here we didn't even find out about you until the last time we went to the doctor we were supposed to have one baby but you killed HER AND YOUR MOTHER" he yelled then slapped her he told her to pack her shit and get out and that's what she did she survived after herself before she ended up in the psych ward for 2 years for something she doesn't even remember. As for Anna she felt like she had to be perfect and if she wasn't perfect he tried to make sure she was Anna had losts of problems of her own her dad walked out on her and her mom then her mom died a couple of years later Anna didn't have any family she didn't really talk to nun of the sides of her family it was alway her,her mom and her dad she was happy but soon that all faded Anna was always happy infront of people face so they wouldn't ask questions about her Anna didn't like to feel odd she always wanted to fit in she really liked dayshawn but she knew that if she dated him they would break eachother after that day in the bathroom and what happened after she knew she messed up cause her feelings her him grew larger and larger she then left his place in the middle of the night and she didn't want to speak to him about it anymore....
Trey and kaliyah
Kaliyah and trey always had they own problems they never let the group know Trey started cheating on kaliyah and every time she found out they had an argument where they would break up but trey always apologized and she always took him back she knew it was dumb but she felt as is she had a purpose to help him in his life and that if she wasn't there for him he would do something to hurt himself but in trey mind he was hurt he was upset that he felt like he was alone he knew he had kaliyah he was just afraid that one day she would leave him and not be there for him so he always wanted to have girls in line for when she did actually leave he didn't like to hurt but it seems like that's all he always did to her...
"Trey when you gone stop cheating on me like for real" she asked sitting on his bed with her bra and shorts while he was laying on her with no shirt and shorts smoking, she then again caught another girl in his phone telling him she had a good time last night
"I don't know ma I'm scared that one day you gone leave and I don't want that to happen but look at all that's happened" he said but he didn't wanna say the real reason which was deep down he knew that he thought kaliyah would leave just like his mom did....
Saint...
Saint doesn't really know what to do with himself he's quiet all the time people ask him why but he doesn't say but he knew why when he thought his brother died he used to cry everyday and tell his aunt about what happened but she didn't believe him and trey was to young and had a speech disorder to really learn how to talk properly after trey cousin died he went silent to a lot of people he felt as if he didn't wanna talk any more he felt like he was waisting his words on meaningless stuff so he talk if it was to send end his friends or something important saint really didn't care what people said about him cause he was knew what was true and what wasn't he knew that if nobody had him he would be alone and saint didn't want to be alone cause if he was alone he would get lost in his thoughts that's why he never liked complete quietness it was either music or the tv had to be playing for him if the house was quiet he couldn't bare to be in complete quietness or his demons would come back and they will ruin him..
Dayshawn...
Dayshawn laid in bed thinking about Anna like he always did but after she rejected him he felt like nobody wanted him dayshawn mom killed herself due to battling depression and she let depression win dayshawn mom was his biggest supporter when he lost her she went into depression just like her he always put a smile on his face around everyone he wanted to always be happy but deep down he knew that was hard to do cause on most days he would miss his mom one day he did plan on killing himself but the day he was about to Anna came and stopped him and they had a long talk about it and he let it all out to her about how he couldn't take it anymore he was hurt, sad, and tired he felt like he didn't have a purpose on this earth anymore and that he always felt like it was people judging him on how he was and how he acted sometimes he was just sick of all of it and after what happened between him and Anna and him waking up to her not there he felt like she didn't want him but he really wanted her and wanted to do everything to get her....
Travis...
Travis wanted revenge after he got shot his mom and her boyfriend took him to the hospital and they got him help but they lied to him they told him that his brothers left him for dead and after that Travis believed them and stuck with his mother and he always wanted revenge on his brothers for leaving him after a couple of years he met this old man and the old man set Travis path for him helped him grow and be who he is today but the old man had a plan for Travis to find his brothers and get his revenge he wanted but the old man wanted revenge of his own on his daughter Alexis he never forgave her after all them years he always blamed her for everything she felt as if she took away his happiness and love of his life Travis knew the whole story and the old man and him negotiated a plan to where they both get there revenge....
The group....
The group had a lot of problems they were dealing with by their selves but they always knew that they had each other back but they never trusted each other fully to tell them how they were feeling or dealing with personally they always love each other form day one but they felt as if everybody was better than the other and they wouldn't get each other problems and that they would judge them and nun of them could take that they were all emotionally drained and tired they all had demons they were fighting but nun of them never actually knew how deep the problem was with each other....
Ok I'm done with the chapter cause this really made me sad like I cried his whole chapter..
