My Rockstar || Jaden Hossler (Completed)

Chapter 38

I don't want to live anymore. I can't live knowing that I hurt Lily

Josh told me that she cried for two weeks daily.

I can't believe I caused her to feel this pain

I want to kill myself

I grabbed my phone from my nightstand and opened to Lily's contact

My princess❤️😍

I was never able to change her name. I want to text her, and tell her how much I love her, and how much I'll miss her

My princess❤️😍

hey princess, I want to tell you something. I love you. I never stopped loving you. I only dated Mads for clout. I never loved her, or even liked her. every time I was with her I was thinking about you. every time we filmed tiktoks, I would imagine that she is you.
I've been cutting a lot recently. My mental health is awful. I cry myself to sleep every day knowing that I hurt you. I'm sorry Lily, but I can't do it anymore. I can't live knowing that I hurt you. I just wanted to tell you that I love you so much, more than words can describe. Tell mom and dad, Haley and Sophie that I love them and that I'll miss them. I love you princess and I'll miss you so much. good bye my love❤

Delivered at 8:29 pm

I threw my phone on the bed and walked to the bathroom. 

I deserve this pain. I deserve dying

I grabbed some pills from the cabinet

goodbye world

I chugged the whole bottle in my mouth. I started feeling dizzy and everything became blurry

next thing I knew, everything became black

3rd person's POV

Josh have been trying to text Jaden and call him, but he wasn't answering.

he started getting really worried about him. He was the only one that knew, that Jaden was always getting suicidal thoughts.

he tried getting rid of these thoughts, that Jaden maybe did something to himself, but he couldn't, so he scrolled through tiktok for a while, maybe this can get his mind off his best friend

Lily's POV

I was filming tiktoks with Avani and Addison, then I got a message.

"go see who it is" Addison said. I shook my head

"let's film this tiktok, I'll check it later, it probably Josh or something" I said replaying the sound on Avani's phone

after filming about 10 tiktoks, I grabbed my phone to see who texted

Jaden

I opened the message quickly

tears started welling up in my eyes as I read it.

no no this can't be happening. we promised each other that we won't end our lives

"Lily are you okay?" Avani said noticing the tears

I shook my head quickly and went to Josh's contact

I pressed call waiting for him to reply with tears streaming down my face

"hey Lily" Josh said

"Josh there's no time, come pick me up, we have to go see Jaden" I said running downstairs to put my shoes on