yesterday : 1D

March 28th, 2021

March 28th, 2021
Yesterday

  i wake up and suddenly were in Las Vegas, Nevada.
the mornings are boring and the nights are usually the best.
the night with harry's hoodie was amazing but not quite the same as him.
the old me loved him but idk about this me.
it's not that i don't love him, i do, but i don't really know him.

" fio! " i hear a voice say.
" yeah? " i question as i pull the curtain of my bed back to the bright lights from the window glaring in.
" wake uppppp" i watch as harry says childish
ya know for someone in the mafia he's not as tough as he looks.
i get up and harry goes over towards the door, signaling me to come on.
" i'll be there in a second, i need to get my stuff."
he nods his head and continues to leave to the arena where most nights we get ready if we're not staying at a hotel.
i grab my bag that has my stuff that i need to get ready, before i go out i open up my journal and get the picture of my family and the old me, i kiss it, it makes me feel better about my life and like i'm right back at home, though i feel good here i miss it, i miss the random people yelling, the band kid, the random parties and the cops busting the parties, running from the police after stealing a road sign, i miss it but now i'm committing bigger crimes.
i could never be able to thank louis enough for this picture, it truly is me, every bit of me.
i continued my way through the rest of the tour bus towards the arena.
as i walk in i'm greeted my security but they already know who i am and let me by, i've never felt so privileged.
security's leading me through the long hallways as i already smell the cheap pack of cigarettes entering the room.
" you guys are working your way through a cheap pack of cigarettes i see." i state
i short bit of silence is going through the air as well as smoke.
" i'm going to go take a shower and get ready." i said as i leave the awkward situation.
they looked like they were all off.

after i get ready, shower, brush my teeth, change, do my hair and makeup i'm finally ready and i come out to see that the boys aren't there anymore, besides lea.
we walk around thinking they're just at sound check, as me and atherya walk towards the from of the pit section of the stage.
it's all silent then suddenly we get scared by a big " boo " from all the boys.
they're
so
childish.
" stop omg. " lea said scared for her life.
" ya know the events last night weren't as scary as these." i said jokingly.

they had a cake for me, to make me feel more welcome and lea knew but was acting like nothing. i seriously don't know these people at all. as we're eating the strawberry cake, my favorite, i start to think.

everyday is like the same, now the boys were at soundcheck singing their hearts out.
lea and i get done and go back to the dressing rooms and i lay down and close me eyes.
tonight were staying over at the hotel as tomorrow they'll be a concert in Phoenix, Arizona and it's only a four hour drive.
that'll be the last concert till our one week break we'll be spending in Cancún, Mexico as a place to write music, relax from traveling, concerts, and maybe even crime.
it still puzzles me that they do crime.
though we're staying in a hotel tonight it's going to be weird because harry and i might not be in the same room.
but i have spend so long with out him, and now that i do have him it's weird, even though he makes me feel special.

as i'm lost in my thoughts and they get interrupted by the boys shouting as they're back from soundcheck all giving their preppy smiles lighting up the room, i quickly realize maybe i'm meant to be here.
" fyvie " i hear someone say sounding a lot like my mother.
i look up and no one is looking at me like they were speaking to me. that's strange.
" are you guys ready for your show?" i asked
they all nod their heads.
it's still shocking the do this mafia stuff to me.
we all talk about the events that happened last night as we wait.
"where's your safety lock windows?" louis quoted me.
" he was being a dick bro, i had to say something back." i said as everyone laughed
after we're done laughing the boys have to leave to go preform and of course lea and i are in the wings of the big stage.
" have you and niall talked yet?" i ask as the boys are making jokes, and sing.
" we've been talking and i think he might ask me out soon."
" before i got her again we're you or any of the guys a thing?" i asked
" no why?"
" i don't know i really like harry and i know it but it just feels wrong."
" everything happens for a reason." lea told me.
i hug her, words from people i don't really know but they know me, mean a lot.
" is fyvie just like fio?" i asked
" yeah of course."
i ask lea because she's the only one that knows fyvie and fio.
"thank you." i told her
" i love you too." she said smiling over to me sans hugging me again.
the boys singing their hearts out is the best feeling to see. they get a break from illegally hurting.

everything happens for a reason so i need to make the best out of it and be happy, if i'm sad and lonely i'll regret it, i need to be living my best life.
so i will.

after about an hour the boys come back all sweaty and go to the showers, we get in the bus and go to a hotel.
harry's walking toward me as we're in the lobby.
"come stay with me tonight please." he said.
" harry i don't know if that's the best."
"fio i know you love me deep down inside, just do it please? just this one night?"
" okay i guess. " i replied.
he does his cute little celebration.
after getting the hotel rooms book, we go outside to get our bags and all we see is flashing lights.
paps.
they're so annoying.
harry holds my hand while there's security guards in front of us.
we get our bags and go to our rooms still with flashing light blinding us.
we have the biggest room again.
as we get ready for bed the same way we have before for years, which is still confusing. i feel a little spark of love radiating off of him.
we get in the bed and under the covers slowly falling asleep.
"i love you fio." harry said thinking i was asleep.
i love him too, but i can't tell him.

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Authors note:
i'm so sorry it's taken so long to get another chapter out and that it's really boring but i promise next few chapters will be better!
i prob won't be writing again till summer which is next week for me!
thank you guys for reading!
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