some days
i can feel
my heart
beat like a steady drum.
some days
i can feel
my heart
breaking until it's gone.
every day
i feel
in control.
some thing i've not had.
every day
i feel
the hole.
it grows bigger.
and bigger.
for a moment,
maybe a day,
month,
year or two...
it stops.
and for a moment,
everything will seem fine.
but how long can i hold on to it?
