Misery loves company

Chapter 2: Time waits for no one

I never told them why I would call them because they would just think I was dramatic and I was but I would constantly feel sick with worry wondering what could possibly happen to them.

Now my nightmare was most certainly real but this time I didn't play the clueless loved one. It was my family and friends that were the clueless ones now. It was the people closet to me that had no idea someone they cared about was battling between life and death but this time no one knew if it was too late or not.
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All I could feel was pain. It took over my whole body. I could hear muffled voices and frantic footsteps back and forth. I could hear the sirens but it was more a background noise now.

I could vaguely see the red flashing lights that went along with the continuous siren. It was still there though silently screaming for help from anyone that would listen but there wasn't much people could do. They could make way for the van and hope that the person inside is okay but that was it. Everyone sees the cry for help but there is nothing the people around could do about it.

Everyone would continue with their everyday life completely unaware of what is happening around them. Some would be curious once the flashing light caught their eyes,some would be scared of the possibility their loved ones or even themselves would face the same fate one day or some would be not bothered from it at all and not letting it affect their day.

My eyes kept slowly opening and closing again fighting to see light like I was that little boy again that had an irrational fear of the dark. I couldn't understand how a part of me has completely given up ,not even bothering to try but the other part was fighting with every breath, through the pain. Terrified of everything,not knowing what is going to happen next if I stop. Scared I won't see my loved ones again.

I didn't understand how one person could want two very different things especially when it came to life or death. I knew I didn't have a choice but to fight,I couldn't leave Leonard growing up without a father. I couldn't fathom of being apart from Amy. What about my mom ? She couldn't lose someone else in her life. I needed to fight for everyone's sake and my own but then why did a part of me want to give up even when knowing the facts.

I could see the people standing above me when my eyes opened slightly. I didn't know any of them or recognize them but there they all were,rushing around tirelessly saving someone they hardly knew. They used as much care as one would do for a loved one but they didn't even know my name. They fought for me to live as much as I did except they put more effort in.

I was finally engulfed in my new fear, darkness. My body was in tremendous pain and I could feel everything. I grew tired and weak until the part of me that was fighting seemed to start giving up slowly to.

"I'm Amy Farrah Fowler and you're Sheldon Cooper."

"I love you exactly the way you are. "

"I love you too."

"you're even better than dark matter"

"we can find out together"

"kissing is romantic "

"will you marry me ?"

"you're my heartworm"

"we have our whole life to do science together"

"you're the only reason I deserve one "