It was in moments like that she felt like cuddling up to someone, hug them and tell them she loved them. But she knew that was not how it worked. It was a bad idea.
Being in this state was a bit like being drunk. She said things she didn't always mean, or maybe just said things a bit to fast. She wasn't in control of what came out of her mouth.
She knew she would regret it in the morning if she told them. And it would be unfair to them too, because she didn't knew if she really did love them. Sure she cared a lot about them and really, really liked them. But love? That was hard.
In the end she just told the other that she cared deeply for them and was so glad they where a part of her life. Then she went home and got to bed to sleep.
The next day the girl couldn't help but wonder if she did actually loved the other. If she should just have told them. The other had said it before, surely it wouldn't have been that big of a deal. Right?
But it was. The girl just couldn't bring herself to say it. The last time she had loved someone it didn't turn out well. Sure they where still friends, but their relationship died fast. To fast. She didn't want that to happen this time. She was afraid to move to fast.
But would it ever be the perfect time? Would she ever even figure out if she did love the other? Would this turn out good? She didn't know. And actually she didn't care much. She just wanted the other to be there, maybe even love her. She wanted her girlfriend.
A/N Hey! This probably didn't make sense I just had to get it out of my head. So if anyone even read it hope you liked this very short thing.
- Sunshine💙☀️
