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Austin Tomlinson a 14 year old boy or other wise known as the son of Allison Grand a Louis Tomlinson. Allison and Louis were a high school couple but their relationship changed when Louis went to audition for X - Factor and never came b...
When they gave that diagnosis again I lost it. I was so mad at those idiots of a doctor he said he took the whole thing out and now he says 'Oh right I didn't take the whole thing out that bloody idiot what does he think I am paying him for? His job was to make my dad better but the idiot didn't do his fucking job. They said that now it has grown to much so surgery would be a waste. We could do chemo but all that will do is delay the whole thing. I was all up for the chemo thing as long as I had more time with dad. But dad was against it. I got mad at him for not taking the chemo.
*Flash back*
"I dont understand why you cannot take the chemo. Come on dad please" I ask him completely utterly vulnerable. I cant loose him.... He was there with me for everything if he.... leaves who will be with me?
"I cant Austin I am tired" He told me.
That one word was more than enough for me to see him a new light. I could see how weak and tired he looked. He looked like he wanted to give everything up. He really looked tired he didn't look full of life like he always was. I understood now what my mom said when she was sick 'Sometimes people are tired and it is better if they get a chance to rest' When she told it to me back then I didnt understand what she meant but looking at dad I understood it all he just wants to rest now..
"Okay... But I will always be here even when you rest" I said with a smile. I wanted to outside and wreck the whole place. But I cant do that in front of dad. I have to be brave for him...
He smiled back at me even through the pain I knew he was going through.
*End of flash back*
After 3 weeks from that incident he went to... rest. A rest that he wanted. I knew that day was going to come I thought I came to terms with it. But I guess it is a whole different thing when it actually happened you know. I was officially actually in charge of my life I mean I could just call dad and ask him what I should.
I walked to Dad's grave it has been 4 months since he died. I am still taking it hard a I guess but I will be fine I always will be cause I know I have him with me even if he isnt exactly there with me. My son was born. I named him Ezra Louis Tomlinson. Ezra because that was a name dad would have wanted to name me if he was there when I was born and Louis because he looks just like dad.. He has the same blue eyes like dad's. I know even though his features are only going to develop he is going to look just like him... I some form I feel like this some sort of rebirth thing so it kind of makes me feel not so alone.
I moved out of the music industry after that. I mean the main reason I went in the industry was for dad but he wasn't there anymore so there was no reason for me to stay. But I wanted to write on more song before I left. But that song wasn't for everyone in the world it was for only for dad... It was going to be between just me and him.
I open the gate to the empty cemetery. I walk over to dad's grave that had dozens of flowers on it from fans. I sit on the dirt covered ground and I let out a small laugh thinking what dad would say if he say that I was wearing a new pair of jeans and sitting in the dirt.
"Hey dad it is me" I say and laugh again I just said 'it is me'
"Um.... Last week Ava gave birth to a boy he looks just like you I would say. I named him Ezra Louis Tomlinson" I said. I sort of waited kind of hoping that I would get a reply but I knew I would get nothing but I still smiled.
"Anyways I am going to leave the industry kind of tired of it" I say. A small silence takes over.
"Before I stop the whole music gig I thought I would write one more song for you" I told.
"I hope you like it" I say softly and start to sing. It was just me singing no instrument, camera or a crowd of people .
You're tired now, lie down I'll be waiting to give you the good news It might take patience And when you wake up, it won't be over So don't you give up
We've got the time to take the world And make it better than it ever was That's what they'll say about us
If I say a cliché, it's 'cause I mean it We can't walk away, we gotta get in between it And when you wake up, we'll grow together So don't you give up
We've got the time to take the world And make it better than it ever was That's what they'll say about us
I never said it would be easy I'm never giving up, believe me I used to think the pain would fade, but it never does
You're tired now, lie down I'll be waiting to give you the good news It might take patience And if you don't wake up I'll know you tried to I wish you could see him
He looks just like you
I finish I felt a small tear fall down my cheek but I wipe it off. I wish I could know if he heard it and if he understood it.
Just as I was about to leave a small wind blew. I smiled. Call me delusional or someone who believes in crap like this. But I believe that it was dad.
"I will always love you dad. You can rest now" I say softly a small part of me knowing that he was around here and listening.
-THE END-
Guys I am so emotional right now... I am sorry if you aren't happy with the ending but I wanted an ending that wasn't a perfect one all happy this one I feel is happy but in its own way...
I really hope you liked this book. Thank you for spending your time on this book. It means a lot.
Keep an eye out for my next book 'Devil's Apprentice' coming out soon
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