Running in and out of time

Getting through

Dear diary,
My first day of HighSchool wasn't at all what I thought I would be. I learned that not all the kids that go to this prep school aren't all rich. most surprisingly are just ordinary people but,you still have your jock jerks, the nerds, and the "populars" as they like to call it.It's really nice to have actual friends.. I never knew what it was like to have someone by ur side to laugh with or anything.
Also I learned that when someone new comes into town everyone has to know why. Lucky jake was there to help with all the whispering around. Everyone was either calling me "the girl that lost her mom and brother" or "the new girl". I really didn't care,but hearing at every corner that you lost your mom and brother just made it harder to move on.
Well that's enough going on about my first day.. Dad has dinner.
Till next time...... Jamie

I walk down the stairs and it seems like no one is home,
But I can hear screaming and laughter from outside. As I walk closer to the back door i notice just who's voices it is.. Amelia, Zach and dad. Amelia must have invited him over knowing it was the first day of highschool. When i opened the back sliding door My nose was immediately filled with the scent of hotdogs and hamburgers.
"Hey jam it's so good of u to join us" dad saids waiting for a hug
"How was your first day of school?"amelia asks with a exciting look on her face.
"I was pretty good!" I say and then pause waiting for something else to come out of my mouth but it doesn't.
All throughout dinner i Tried to find my unspoken word but I could not put my finger on it.
"Hey Jamie, zach and i are going to band practice do u want to come?"
I have nothing better to do so I decided to go.
The place the band practices is at an old abandon boat house 45 minutes away from any sort of civilization. It's surrounded but field and old houses and smells like fish. The boat house looks run down as all can be but once you go inside, it's quite beautiful how they set it up. About 3 miles down is the lake it's not as pretty as the ocean also it's not as clean. But no one seems to care, once in a while the band has a party out here and they swim in the lake. There use to be a rope but zach broke it after someone let go to soon and had to be rushed to the hospital.
When we reach the boat house it is already dark outside, it's not as much creepy as it is eye catching. The stars are so bright making you feel like the only person in the world. For a split second i let the stars and the night sky bring me into another word, a world where my mom is still alive and where my brother is still here. As I get out of the car the night breeze catches up to me and I realize I left my jacket at home.
I side the house is all the band equipment with a little sitting area, a bathroom,a bedroom and whole place has carpet.The guys fixed it up pretty well, once in a while they sleep out here on weekends so they can practice more.
"Hey Jamie I didn't know u were gonna be here?" Saids Jake as I walk inside.
"Changed my mind at the last minute, that's ok with u right? I joke. He laughs and so do I.
Band practice when on as usual. There music was awesome! I had no idea that Jake could write songs.. And he's pretty good at it! In the middle of practice Justin decided to come:at least I wasn't alone know.
When I went outside at the end of band practice I didn't realize how late it was. It was almost 11 and I still had to get prepared for tomorrow. As I'm staring into what looks like a black hole I hear someone coming up behind me, i admetiately turn around and then i relax, its only Justin.
"Gezz Justin! You almost gave me a heart attack!" I say smiling at him
"Sorry, I just wanted to let you know that everyone is packing up, we will be ready to leave in 15 minutes" he saids rubbing the back of his neck
"Ok well I'll go back inside i guess" he saids with an awkward looking ok on his face
"No stay out here.... Please" i pause
"It can be a little scary out here" i say in a little girl voice with my lip out.
"Haha ok, I'll stay out just to make you feel better.. Haha" he jokes
A few minutes pasted and we decided to take a walk around the boat house to the main road. I told Amelia I was going to be gone and if I don't get back to pick us up on the main road.
The night wind started to pick up again and i soon realized i was shivering. Justin offered his jacket to me and I took it.
"So how did u like school?" He asked once again rubbing the back of his neck.
"It was good i guess.. It was hard getting around but after awhile I got the hang of it." I say looking off at the stars
"So where u born here? Moved here? I say
"I have lived here for most of my life. I live in New York till I was 5."
He saids
"Yea well at least you really can't remember" i said. I can remember everything, why I am here, who i lost, and the life I had before.
All of a sudden he stops... In the middle of the road. I stop too and he turns my way. He grabs for my hand and i let him take it. He starts to lean in, a sudden wave of nervousness drowns me. I think about what could happen when I feel his soft lips on mine. He puts his hands in the small of my back while my hands are against his chest. We start to pull away slowly as i enter reality.
"Umm... sorry, i shouldn't have done that" he saids butting his lip
"Yea.. Uh it's fine." I say smiling
We walk back to the boat house which seemed to take forever, and It was entirely awkward. As we reach back to the boat houses back deck i handed him is jacket.
"Thanks" he saids so lightly it seems quieter then a whisper.
I smile and head to the car passenger door.
The rest of the car ride was pretty quite, with Jake and Justin in the back seat.
When I got home dad was asleep on the couch, and snoring up a storm. Amelia and I ran upstairs to get ready for bed. When our makeup was off and we both were in pjs Amelia and i both slowly but loudly ran down the stairs. Amelia grabbed the ice cream and spoons and I grabbed as many blankets as I could.
As we sat on the bench just outside the back door Amelia opens the ice cream.
"Eat up little sis" she Saids with a smile and offering me the container.
"Why thank you" i say laughing.
By the end of the night we had gone through the whole container of ice cream and damn was it good!
the laughter a that we shared and the conversations we had were pretty good! Amelia and i haven't talked like this in a while, she's always busy having a life while I was stilling at home alone.
"Hey Amelia.. Thanks." i say reaching out for her hand
"Anytime sis" she smiles taking my hand.
"Im going to go to bed, I'll see you in the morning, goodnight" I say as I turn around and wave goodbye.
"Goodnight, we will eventually have to talk about this kiss you had tonight" she whispered as I opened the door
"How did you know?!" I stop opening the door and turn around to face her
"I have my ways... Now go to sleep and we can talk about it later"
I walk in the house and cover dad with the blanket that i had used moments before. As I crawl into bed i finally relax and go off into a land that is full of possibilities.