Overwhelming Emotions

numbness

can't seem to get rid of

this feeling of numbness

fills my body with a sense of nothingness

think my brain is trying to protect my heart

how can I be torn apart

and be on my guard?

they expect me to be okay 

to smile and produce no trouble, I know it no matter what they say

don't they understand I want the same

guess I have a lot of questions

what if I'm not what I envision?

what if all this sadness is my disposition?