He does a lot for me, he truly does but some days it feels like I actually consider him more then he does me.
Why you may ask?
To me love isn't just about affection but considering the others feelings.
Since he works I clean. No one believes chores are a job. Unfortunately when done everyday cleaning up after one person everyday it's exhausting. How can One person make such a mess. You start to think it's on purpose since "you don't work" but your gut tells you it isn't like that because he loves you.
When you confront him he tells you all he does for you and how you're making no sense. It's just a messy room to him and a agreement to us.
What really got me to mumble today was the fact of when he tells me to eat I can't think of food. I hate decisions, he knows that but we can talk about that subject later.
Now whenever I make food I ask him what he likes and he does the same for me.
It's just the days where I don't ask I always surprise him with food, when we're told dinners done by my mother I always grab him food. I serve him whenever he's gaming.
So why is that, whenever I'm gaming, watching a movie or doing something he can't even think to serve me? He can't consider maybe she'd want food?
Maybe she should be surprised back?
When I bring it up apparently it's me not noticing he "does these things" and I don't notice.
Am I just snobby? To greedy for my own good? Crazy? It's just a serving of food that ticked me off.
I'm pathetic
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Burnout
RandomThe mind of a schizophrenic, depressed stoner. This is just something for me to release in secret so I don't bottle up the emotions and voices i hear. The conversations I'm forced to have with My demons. It's not gonna be good or probably make sense...
